There’s nothing
When I look inside myself
Nothing.
I don’t care about a thing
My chest is so numb I can’t feel
There’s just emptiness within
However,
My methods to force stimulation
They’re relentless
They’ll work
But surely they’ll deal some damage
And I already have so many scars
But I can’t.... I can’t feel like this
I can’t keep feeling void!!
I will do anything to feel something.

I really wish
There was some part of me
That cared about anything

I can’t believe it
I almost couldn’t finish
Because you... you were in my head
I nearly cried!
Flooded with dopamine
And you made me cry
I still miss you, **** it!
Your absence has left my heart torn
YOU LEFT ME ALONE

You’re no good for me
I’ll only hurt you
But my stupid little heart
It got attached
It desperately wants you close

I miss you
I love you
And I’m so... I’m so sorry...

I miss you tonight
You’re still always on my mind
One month since you gave up on me
And I would do anything
Literally anything at all
For one more conversation
To see you
To hear your voice
Just one more time

What do you do...
When your unconscious mind
Knows what you want....
And it’s so **** destructive
But it almost... almost is trying to coerce you
You’re fantasizing....
About your end....

Aw and man... the *******...
The ******* phantom pain
The stinging on my wrist
From where it remembers
And where it wants me
To cut

It’s begging me
The phantom is a cruel tease
I just want it to be real
I want to draw it in....