My past created my present
Yet, it’s nowhere near my extent
My future is undefined
Something that is only mine
Time will pass, and I remain infinite  
An existence classified as definitive

I want to get so high
That I forget who I am
Whoever I become
She’ll be better than the original
Spontaneous adventures
That lead to regrets
That I won’t remember

I’m floating away in time
Your face is swirling in my mind
Unclear, blurry, and undefined
Is that you?
Or who I thought you were
Your lies caught up to you
And my image of you morphed
Are those horns? Is that a tail?
You used to whisper
Such sweet words
Lies.
Lies.
They were all lies.
I remember them all
They sounded like promises
Ones that you never made
Ones that you never kept
Ones that never existed

Don’t ever trust this smile
It’s a despondently, trained lie
My eyes may seem hostile
But you won’t ever hear me cry
And you won’t ever see my cuts
The only thing you’ll see is this **** smile

You were with a girl.
I'm not sure if she's just a friend.
Maybe she's more than that.
Maybe her smiles touch your soul gentler.
Maybe her voice soothes the storms in your head.
Maybe her kisses make you feel safe.
I'm not sure.
I don't want to be sure.

You were with a girl.
Maybe this time, I'll stop checking my phone for messages that'll never come.
Maybe I'll stop counting the days since we last talked.
Maybe I won't think of you anymore.
I'm not sure.
But *******, I wanna be.

He ripped my heart out
Clawed it from my chest
Carelessly threw it about
Painfully leaving me in unrest.