I should’ve know when you didnt want to talk bout the future that you wouldn’t be here for long You dodged my questions when I asked about where you saw yourself in five years. About grad school. About moving to New York You didn’t ask me questions about where I saw myself in five years. About grad school. About moving to New York.
I should’ve known you’d be painfully present when you wouldn’t share about the past We never did talk about grade school, or skinned knees, bad grades or good teachers
All you ever could think in was the present, and when I started to ask about the future, bout next week, I was no longer welcome in your presence You vanished and took with you our time together, past tense
So I keep sleeping, to escape the present Hide behind my covers in broad day light My dreams take me to a place where the past, present and future are nowhere to be found And that’s where I’m able to find you, again
I tell my best friend I don’t know why I’m still sad That it feels wrong to feel so much for someone that I don’t think felt much about me She tells me it’s easier to be sad than to let yourself feel better And she’s right cause it’s easier to miss you than hate you Easier to be sad than to be happy and forget or forgive I’m more comfortable being sad cause then no one can take happiness from me There’s nothing left to lose in sadness, except for the comfort of it all And isn’t that, beautiful, too?
Maybe I miss you and maybe I shouldn’t but the truth is I do I’m in a crowded room Surrounded by bright lights and lovely people but i still wish we had more than a passing encounter last night Wish I knew for certain that this would one day go somewhere cause I don’t lend my heart out often I was hopeful And you surprised me And hurt me And left me But didn’t quite leave yet Will you come back to stay