We are trapped in our own river of Time
being pushed forward faster the longer we live
We can see behind us to where we have been
before us we can only guess what will come
There is madness being thrown into the rapids
confusion and disorientation fills my mind
as the cold feelings fill my lungs and heart

I long to sit in a steady pool of water
a lake of peace or an endless ocean
anything to stop this maddening journey
I cannot keep up with the speed of the water
everything that I was has washed away
I am drowning in Time, the present does not exist
constantly moving forward, nothing is now

I'm writing my feelings down,
to let people know how it feels to be me.

Feeling like you don’t belong in your own body
Knowing you cannot change
One is dark and one tries to be a cheerful gaudy
It is a journey that is always, every day strange
Feeling like you live by the word alone
Knowing you can't keep your own company
Danger is the risk you breathe
But it will always be hard to know and see
The real you, so many emotions seep
Feeling like you could break down from even a sound
Knowing you may be crazy insane
Your heart knows exactly how to react
But living is the most draining
Feeling like you could possibly make it till tomorrow
Knowing that it may be selfish
Not caring who sees or hears your begging
But all you can do is look to your scars
All you can do is wish


For a better day