I was addicted to you, but it hurt so good.
And I had to quit.

I was never okay without you, but I was surviving.
And then you reached out.

I was packed up, but then you told me I could stay home.
And you were my home.


but i am so scared, i am terrified.
what if he leaves me and i'm left like a ******* idiot again?
what if i'm left out in the cold?
what if i'm locked out of my own home?

I feel like I'm drowning
And falling
And sinking
And I've never felt this way before
I can't find the ground
Yet I brush it beneath me
Not landing
But feeling
And I've never felt this way before
Never
Before

Shouldn't be liking you

I'm afraid of your smile, I'm afraid of that look in your eye when you speak to me, I'm even afraid of that look on your face when you walk past me and pretend as if I'm not there, I'm afraid to say it out loud that I'm starting to like you, because I shouldn't...

Your hand shakes turned to hugs and as I held your body close to mine breathing in that beautiful intoxicating aroma impairing my logic, daring my lips to press against yours

When you kissed me when you shouldn't have, the way your heart raced, the way your tongue tastes, mischief and mayhem but it was all we wanted at the time and the outside world had no meaning for us

When you invited me over to visit and the minutes grew to hours and as the hours past the midnight stroke tolling in a new day the seduction deepened

You might as well be named forbidden fruit, and as I gaze at you upon that limb my appetite for desire continues to grow

When all the ethical foundation and moralities cry out warning me that this wrong I still can't help wanting you

You who keeps me up at night with littles fantasies dancing in my head, got me tossing in my bed trying to rush the night into sun rise just for my eyes to be blessed by the sight of you

As I let myself wallow in the thrill of your presence I can't help but think that she's at home waiting for me

She ...who has my heart my loyalty my love

But you have my curiosity my attention and you excite my sensual interests

I am ashamed that this kind of happiness is from such an unlikely source and now that I like you what am i to do, I know I shouldn't but I only want you to like me as much as I like you, could I be asking for too much...

I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you!

Nothing matters, But somehow you did, and always will. <3