In my bones there is fire
It seeps from my marrow
It radiates
It burns me from the inside out demanding to be heard
To be felt
To be known
I shut my eyes and push back the pain
The sorrow
I allow myself to become hollow
And pure
But I am unclean
I am filth
I am rage
There is a fire
And it burns
And as I rip the flesh from my bones
I can hear it whisper
It is pure

In darkness I found myself
Empty through the veins
To my finger tips
Numb
I became
Inseparable from the pain
The leeches that drew
The words from my flesh
My flesh from my bones
The bones I crack open
To feel alive
To feel ashamed
I'm on my knees and I no longer feel a thing
Feel you
I long for you
I cling to you
But you can't even hear me anymore
But until the earth has taken me
Until my rotting marrow
Seeps into the bellow of the lamb
I will call for you
For you

For a thousand lives, only one was needed
Every lie I told, and infection treated
We run together, we run apart
We fight the madness of mind and heart
I cling to you for one last breath
I wish for life, I wish for death
And with this promise you have spoken
And every promise I have broken
I forgive myself with reason
Only time can cleanse this treason
For you, a thousand lives I give
For you, a thousand lies I live

I sold my last breath
For a pocket full of memories I would soon forget
Because I forgot what it feels like
To stop breathing