Some of the things that we do to survive will absolutely **** us.

'you only know what you've got when its gone'*
J Mitchell

at first learning
grief brings the un-returnable message
there is no un-reading
no un-learning
only unbearable immutable fact

in solitude there is no escape
in connection there is no solution

over time the seven stages are traversed
and while there can be no forgetting
with acquiescence
there can be acceptance
and with it
the gentle light of loss
to illuminate
the deepest gratitude


MChallis @ 2014

There once was a day
I went to my boys house to stay
We slept under the covers nice and warm
But suddenly his face was forelorn
Out of the bed he raced
To a secrete door under a rug he paced
And left me behind
I couldn't read these signs
So there I went too
And suddenly knew
What his life had been
It was covered in sin
Under the door and down the stair
Were bodies skinned and hung with care
I'd scream and cry
Then he sighed
And I felt sad
And I wasn't mad
He asked why I hadn't run
I said you're face is my only sun
He told me that when folks left him it was most of the fun
Back on the shelf he put his gun

Brothers
one argument
to another

Always an attack
When defences down
The time for a strike is now

You have life figured out
You're set to be
a government flea

I have life figured out
I'm set to be
Free

Don't.
Question.
Me.

If she could grow up to be anything in the world,
She'd be the last thought on his mind before he falls asleep at night.
Or maybe the last person he danced with to the sounds of the winter evening.
Hers would be the last lips his taste,
The last goodnight he whispers as she drifts to sleep on his chest,
The last hand he holds onto
She'd be his last first date, his last first kiss, his last first dance
The last, greatest love of his life.
If she could grow up to be anything in the world,
She'd be his last choice.

Ever wished life was back to a point where you were most happy?

The moment that gave you a sign of hope for a life story,

One you would share to your great grandson or granddaughter Laurie?

I've had moments that I wish would freeze, the moments that mold me to who I am today,

The memories that would rid my pain of yesterday,

The heartbreak that I felt, the moment that I fell,

It's all coming together and becoming a lovely tale,

The happiness, the sadness, the old crying of the eyes...kid,

Have you ever had this feeling of grief that makes you wish you had a belief,

In love and everything that is oh so sweet,

If you had then you would understand, having those moments would make you a man,

The days of childhood are over and it's quite a simple plan,

Time to grow up, but never forget what made you fearlessly stand,

Above the rest and everyone with doubt,

Live to be who you are and remember...only yourself.

Rainy
Cold
Dreary
Winter on its way

Regret
Sorrow
Sadness
Is much easier today

Oh Winter
You never seize
To throw mind to fray

Please
Go away