As the morning entails of darkest thoughts,
The sun shines bright to rid of such faults,
Another day has begun,
Another light upon your life,
Oh this perfect one,
Do not feel for pain but for love,
There's more to live for than what you've thought of,
Live for yourself and not for another,
Let yourself free and find happiness from others.

The apparition of you, I see,
These thoughts are uncontrollable when it comes to me,
why must these thoughts overtake what I wish to break,
You've implanted plenty of memories in my wake,
Now i see it everytime I'm not awake, selling myself short, yes I'm that sort,
The options are endless,
I feel so friendless, but it's certainly not true,
I have plenty but all I want is you, as a friend or hopefully more, until I get to know you I wont see what's in store, the future is unpredictable and who thinks different is predictable...

Who is this?
The one that I think of so,
Who is this that has wrecked my brain with thoughts of gold,
The one I desire most at the moment,
This creature of beauty,
The way she dresses, I do not mind,
But those eyes have got me hypnotized,
The way she proclaimed and presented herself towards me,
I feel my heart beating towards she. Her.
Memories that I won't forget,
that vibe in her eyes,
What is it that grasps my heart?
What is this feeling?
Am I falling apart?
Have I fell down or have I rose up?
This beautiful music won't stop...
Is this a chance?
Do I see it in her glance?
Or is it my mind playing tricks on my mental stance?
Walls broken as if I was at war,
But these feelings remind me of what has happened before...afraid to even open these great doors.

A Dustland Fairytale beginning,
Just another white trash county kiss,
In '61, long brown hair, foolish eyes

He looks just like you'd want him to,
Some kind of slick chrome American prince,
Blue Jeans Serenade, Moooon River what'd you do to me???

The things that I say are certainly true,
The beautiful one that was picked out of a few,
The heart races as you feel the closing,
But really, it's only the beginning,
Why must it be the way that it has become,
Why not the way I pictured it, oh it's such a ***,
The thoughts seiged like a gun of never ending rounds,
The world is collapsing around these four walls with no sound,
Please send the help that is needed,
I preach to you cause I am feeling defeated,
The mind tends to wander a path of darkness,
Hope it ends soon, never wanted to start this.

It feels as though I am moving forward but always reassured that I remain in the past,

Why must my head boggle when I think of the days behind my back,

The thoughts of anger and fear, the love and the tears, the happiness and what seems to be the memories of my peers,

Every time it overcomes me I push these thoughts away and with all my might spit on it with spite,

I actually enjoy my new life, turned 21 a few days before, it's time for some fun and I'm sure it will come forth,

But as I build strength, the thoughts come once again, to break me down as if it enjoys my pain,

To live a happy life you must accept the bad and the good, but when the bad outweighs the good in such a capacity, things can end up very tragically,

Your mind will play you like a piano made with a million keys, try and fight the feeling because it's not worth the ongoing misery, I pray that you have the strength and might, accept it with love, I do this because I understand what power those nights will shove...