I wrote a note with your name mentioned
But deleted every word within a second
The feeling is long and drawn out
But it’s nothing aside the bigger picture
And much like a small city on this planet
It’s only feels larger when inside of it

surrounded by sky
and speckled in lights
millions of dancing diamonds
flicker into the night

and as each one tells me a secret
i shut out the sound
covering my ears
and pretending
no one is around

fallen leaves cover my feet
i guess i've been here too long
the wind churns through the trees
and i hear my favorite song

a couple states away,
in the snow dusted hills
lies a possible future
that i never thought i'd see

there are several doors
lined up in front of me
and i'm not quite sure
to which one i hold the key

the map that lines my pocket
is crumpled to a point
where i can't read
and the ink has gotten sweaty
as it slowly starts to bleed

i see a light
through a dark, empty space
and i'm too afraid
of truly finding my place
you can read every word
that i think,
on my face
but there's no answer

decision making has always been
something i have trouble with
i either stand in place
or i sink myself into a hole
never really getting anywhere
simply watching
as i, and everyone around me grow old
i'd forget it was winter if it wasn't so cold

time passes around me, twice
twisting trails around my life
letting everything pass me by
as i live, and as i die

2 a.m. approaches, so of course i'm still drinking
sitting under the stars, getting lost,
simply thinking
and i lose myself in the night, as i'm sinking
goodbyes never come soon enough

notes scribbled out into rhymes
never serving a purpose
other than clearing my mind
taking all the ugly stuff out
and turning it into something else

i've always had a hard time taking advice
i make every wrong choice,
at the very least, twice
and sometimes it's hard to realize
that i'm the one thing that stands in my way

i've been shuffling pennies
inside my pocket
and hearing them jingle
as i take more
and more steps
in the wrong direction

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into a drunken, ****** abyss
Falling through the pit as I'm trying to write this
The tunnel is so dark, so I light up and choke
Shrouded and clouded in thick hazy smoke

And as I hit rock bottom, I find some shrooms
"They must be for me." I so proudly presume
I eat them up, nothing happens at all
(a note reads)
"One side makes you small, the other side tall"

Wandering further, still smoking my habit
I see a well dressed, stuck up looking rabbit
And he rushes out to a party of three
Where they are all mad and they're all drinking tea

But I'm not interested in tea, so I stay no longer
I'm looking for a beverage a little bit stronger
Finding my way to the Red Queen's castle
To ask her for ***** and give her a hassle

When I met with the Queen I asked if she had some bud
"The mushrooms you left me were a bunch of duds."
She loudly told me she could lighten my head
So she chopped it clean off, and now I am **dead