Sadness is a badness
A disease of desperate unease
An ugly difficult anomaly
That brings me to my knees
It enters the room
On its own terms
Without a warning
As welcome as germs
Like a kick in the ******
It hurts like hell
Bringing on the confusion
Of words misspelled
I can't ****** help it
What do I do
It grips on so tight
Like a terrier with a chew
A minute, an hour,
A day, sometimes a week
There's no rhyme or reason
For how long I feel bleak
And bleak is how I feel
During the spell
Bleak, numb, disabled
Desperately unwell.
Single, solo
Alone, on my own
Deeper and deeper
Heavy as a stone
I don't want it to happen
Not ever, at all
Like rabies, like syphilis
Like headbutting a wall.
It changes my mind
And the way that I act.
It makes me go silent
I feel like a ****
I cancel appointments
Welch out of dates
Then worry for ages
That I've upset my mates
My pain, my heart ache
Nobody knows
They may have similar
But they don't have my foes
So next time you see me
And I'm not quite myself
Please give me some space
And wish me good health
Please give me some time
To get back to being
To get back to feeling
And hearing and seeing
For when I am happy
My world is amazing
And when I am sad
My world is hell raising
Sadness is a badness
A disease of desperate unease
An ugly difficult anomaly
That brings me to my knees