I wish my eyes were made of glass,
Each one mirroring a different reality
One consumed by time one consumed by my emotions
Look into my blank canvas of a face where you saw nothing and others saw art
Gaze into my eyes and see your reflection Narcissus
How you have lost your will and let this world metamorphosis you into Darian Gray
Yes see what the world perceives you as and gaze into my other eye seeing what you truly are glimpse the figment of beauty you were and the treacherous creation you are today.
You were an erogenous sight for my soul
Like a flower's first blossom
However I have watched that flower wither and lose every gorgeous petal
That's why I wish my eyes were glass because at least your reflection would have kept you entertained
For from the very beginning I saw everything and now I see nothing in the walking carcass that stands before me
You were so beautiful before I knew the person you are
Before you left my heart with scars
Sheets cover in tears and mind overflowing with nightmares.
Sometimes I wonder if it is better to live in this torment or die here
I wish I go back and talk myself out of that moment
The moment I became you
The man in this mirror

Understand that I isolate myself for the purpose of doing the impossible
To be become the impossible
For I thought to myself "I'm possible"
Possible of finding love
Of creating something beautiful
Of inspiring those who will hear what little remnants of my name stay intact
However I'm entitled to nothing
And my existence will mean nothing
Nothing so I thought
However every moment of time has left an impression
I have left a dent in your mind
The very existence of us
The very destruction of us
Maybe it's unforeseen rebirth
Is or will be a memory
And that memory
Will haunt us whenever we are alone
Understand that and accept it
As we each crave for flesh
For tender lips
Sheets dampened by intimacy
And something to satisfy our Sadistic appetite
We are nothing but empty vessels
Even though for that split moment we have feelings of
Satisfaction
Bliss
How long is it before reality collapses on us
How long is it before we realise that a human is cursed to love and that lust is not love
How long before you realise the very existence of you and I
Is it not because God no longer wish to be alone
That's why everyday we search for our better or more realistically lesser half
And everyday we fail one other unintentionally looking for perfection
However it is in our nature to have just that our desire to be something that we aren't
However the demons dance
The angels sing
And everything will remain the same
And today was the day I destroyed everything I wanted to protect to hold dear
to love and cherish
Another night I cry on my pillow
Unable to bear it
I wrote more than three poems about her, only girl to show me the embodiment of love
I would kiss the earth her feet walked upon
She was so much more bigger than me than us so then I thought there could never be an us
The most ethereal soul, kindest heart, and beautiful mind
Someone I could spend my life with or even until the end of time
The graceful butterfly you ever see
That's why I walk the streets at night to put my soul at ease
Though it's not with me my dying wish and last prayer is that you remain happy please.

Know that every coin has two sides
That behind the cover of every book lies a story
So for every deep and beautiful thought in my mind
Simultaneously a manifestation of debauchery is created
So disregard every pure image, intention, and desire my mind has used to guise itself.
There is no good in man
There is no innocence in my eyes
There is no flesh I do not crave to sink my teeth in.

Darkness my brother
How pure of form and transcendent you are
So sterile the void is, a blank canvas whose nothingness brought forth creativity and inspiration
Devour the loving, glowing warmth of my heart and luminous nature of my kinder soul
Embrace me my brother turn me into the shadow of the night
Give me the primordial wisdom and piercing gaze
Even a fragment would keep me unrivalled by anyone but King Solomon


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I can write another poem
However ink stained paper won't return you to me
I never understood why you couldn't love me until that night
I always knew that I was missing something you needed
Identifying what it was is what haunted me
From the very beginning I knew that I would never be enough
I was just bidding time
Your love was the most beautiful thing I ever felt I didn't want it effects to expire
Slowly dying becoming non-existent
However it seems such a thing was inevitable
I watched the gradual decay
Helpless I was but I knew my interference would only hasten the process
You grew distant and cold
To point I wondered did my existence even matter
For now I have the answer

I have tried to show you love
A kind no one else would
However you have proven unworthy
Ungrateful is your heart
I tried to make a vow
To return a soul that I thought you cheated
To return a love you were cheated
To remain unsullied until beckon otherwise
However lust consumes your very bone
You have no reasoning or compassion for me
You stab my heart repeatedly with your cold words
Your demeaning gaze
Yet I still try
A fool I am for that length of time
Bound by the shackles of hope and compassion
Blinded by illusions of visions
No longer has my heart become warm but cold
Cold and Empty like space
My soul return to reaper for it is only her who loves it as it was made for her
Thank You for freeing me
Thank You for never loving me

What was all of this for
The empty words that now I see have no meaning
The arguments of utter malice
What was my purpose in all of this
Was I merely a jester to keep the queen satisfied
Was I merely a placeholder in your game
I was told time and time again the prophetic ending we now embark
However I disregarded it all
The negativity, the malice , the inconsistency to remain in this delusion
When I say I love you who am I talking to
When I say I care for you do my words travel to deaf ears
When I tell you how much it kills me inside to have to ask myself
Do you even care anymore

Ebony a bronzed goddess walking amongst a mortal plane
A name that echoes in my mind along with the intoxicating words of a being so divine  
Her words flow like symphony and she utters ones that ensnare the soul
She isn't someone who belongs here, rather we do not belong in her presence.  
Indeed she is a living, breathing, work of art that belongs on the euphoric clouds of pink and white.
Her name is something words cannot justify  
Likening her to Nefertiti is an understatement of her beauty she surpasses even the most desirable Egyptian goddess.
However it is her ability to stimulate my soul and mind that make my knees weak so that I kneel and kiss the ground she walks upon .
It is her brilliance and artistry that inspires me to constantly evolve to one day be worth of her presence

Have you ever been in love
One where her gaze is like the beams of light emitted by a full moon
When words from that soul could create or destroy you
She is so beautiful and pure your eyes would forgo what others see as flaws
That moment you look into her eyes you saw it all
That one moment where you saw your life's cause
Catering to her needs would be an understatement
You would go above and beyond so her happiness can stay safe
Protected from hatred and poisonous lies those unworthy of her time injected in her beautiful mind.
Don't create time for those who only waste it
Misplaced emotions like a male not knowing the difference between lust and love can leave something so pure devastated
Yes have you ever been in love
Where everything she does is as you're watching something otherworldly
Where the sounds and words that leave her lips are intoxicating
Like the sweetest wine
Yes have ever wonder if she was the one
The seed that would eventually grow into a divine luxury for the eyes of whom help it to grow
The caterpillar who will become a fuchsia butterfly
So much love and compassion that you're frozen by the fear of tainting something so one of kind
Yet you utter "I want you to be mine"
Yes that one human being who you wish to please to the greatest extent of your being
Who you are not afraid to give your heart and soul to
For you know someone like her class
Yes someone of her nature
Would take better care of such vital pieces of your persona than you

On this day my eyes gazed upon something so ethereal that I questioned the very existence of the celestial body.
For upon this day my eyes gazed upon a Goddess undisturbed by the afflictions of us mortals.
She was carefree and in complete harmony with the aspects of this dark dying world but simultaneously brought light.
To gaze upon the muse of masterpieces they were as I am now, blessed.
I witnessed her radiance transcend any star in the sky as her skin bask in the rays of the setting sun and arriving moonlight.
The atmosphere surrounding her was heavy and brought my vessel to its knees, the aroma of cherry blossoms filled my lungs, the thoughts of joy filled my mind, my soul taken by her to Nirvana.
This is the story of how the first human saw his everything in a woman his beginning and end, heaven and hell, death and rebirth.
This is the story of a man’s first blessing, how paradise was brought to earth, how a human saw the extent of The Eternal Father's masterful hand to point he could not articulate.
This was the story known as man’s first odyssey of love

For you are a being whose radiance combats my dark aura.
For you listen to my ramblings not out of pity but out of sincere genuine affection
It seems you understand not the amount of joy you have brought to this soul
One who had no recognition of the sensation of such for we were separated for eons when I was lost in the void
For I take upon the mantle of your Nocturnal Knight while Milady embodies the celestial being he shall serve
A purpose found in making her smile and preventing anything that evokes her tears unless they be ones of joy