"**** it"
no
I refuted

I said,
"Bless it"

The world is enough a hell to be ******
Why curse it further?

Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling

i was born in raining flowers
surrounded by melodies
and magic characters

i was born into love
with hands holding
reassuring touches

i was brought to a swimming pool
with long tangled hair
a blanket of safety for us.

but
i was then taken
to a red sandbox

the rain, so important
had to go
and i was sparse here too.

ill admit, sometimes i was lucky
because twice water filled the sandbox.
except it was stained red from the sediment

and i was left feeling grit on my skin.

but then
i was returned-
not to the raining flowers

to somewhere else
where there is wisdom in the grass
and the rain is gentle and clean

and i need this place
even if i am just
condensation on a cold glass

the rain is still within me

If I could turn back time
I would hit Backspace all day,
Id put on Caps Lock
and SHOUT what I say.

I'd use the whole Alphabet
To tell you hello,
Press seven Numbers
Til you picked up the phone.

I'd Tab through the comments
I didn't want to hear,
And use the Arrow Keys
To drag your body near.

I would Delete the harsh words
I didn't mean to speak,
And Insert the "I love yous"
I before couldn't leak.

I would use Ctrl to
Keep reigns over my heart,
And I would Escape lies
That tore us apart.

I'd Print out your photo
And kiss it goodnight,
Use the Calculator
To check that we were right.

I'd Paint you a picture
of us, you and me,
Then I'd hit Enter
Just so you would see.

Those are the things
I would do in my strife,
If only Backspace
worked in real life.

I estaba enamorado
No se how
pero one dia, yo fell
yo fell para tu
I vi en your eyes
y vi the world
Yo saw el possibilities
I vi el infinity of stars
hidden en tu eyes
an infinity of stars
Soy now trapped in

I used to be terrified
Of fleeting shadows
And moonlight patches
The dark swirling around my feet
And the creaking house whispering dreams
But now I switch off the light
Long before I'm beneath the covers
And ask that the monster grab my feet
Reach from underneath my bed
And pull me under
Because that monster
Any monster
Is better than the one in my head.

Hell hath no fury
Like a brilliant woman scorned
It is best to run

The beautiful roof above my head,
The window to unseen worlds,
The proof that I'm not mad,
The proof I'll heal my wounds.

Shining bright in my direction,
Fading out in their place,
My eyes are blind to their perfection,
After all - how big is Space?

So I'll watch them through my window,
Not afraid of the dark,
Trying to count them by their mysterious glow,
Trying to catch the spark.