I really hit rock-bottom,
It felt like the earth
had swallowed me whole,
I was in total pitch-black darkness,
I felt mentally and emotionally numb,
whilst all alone in that pit--that morbid hole.
I didn't know what was happening,
I was drowning in sheer madness,
I was unable to stand,
I wasn't able to think straight,
I needed to hold a loving, caring, friendly hand.
Then, came a voice from above me,
Or maybe it was all in my head,
It told me to listen carefully,
It told me not to give up,
I had only fallen, I was not dead.
It reminded me that I am precious,
It reminded me that I am strong,
It reminded me that I am worthy,
that I am beautiful, inside and out,
and that surrendering was very,
very wrong.
This voice fed me
desperately needed courage
and Self-compassion,
It reached into my soul,
It gave me new direction,
It pulled me out of that dark,
scary, lonely, black hole.
It was full of love and wisdom,
It was empathetic and kind,
It was exactly what i needed,
A message from God,
straight to my heart,
clearing my chaotic mind.
I have gone through a difficult transformation,
I have gone back to being the real me
that I was many years before,
I am seeing and thinking clearer...
I pray that this transition
is successful and permanent -
may I stay true to myself
forevermore.
By Lady R.F (C) 2017
A blessing came from hitting rock-bottom.
I believe it gave me the courage to remove the smog i hid behind.
I am me again,
Yes i am Rosalie again -
God is great!
Still a long way to go,
but I'm feelimg like the real me again.
A special thank you
to my precious friends
for holding me up.
I appreciate you all!