words
never easy
to say
always easy
to write

until now

words
never limited
to feelings
always spreading
to thoughts

until now

words
never ending
flowing seemlessly
always leading
to mindlessness

until now

now words
now they never
now to you
now they always
now I can't

now

words
never seeming
to fit together
always missing
what I want to say

now

-beckb 041816

i said
i wouldnt
but now
im afraid
its not
the aftermath
of the storm
its the fear
of straightening
the mindless mess
and finding
the last page

-beckb 042416

are not we all clouds
particles
pieces
droplets
atoms
together
but when we feel heavy
we
fall

-beckb 050116

A million reasons to hate
A single reason to be au fait
You're always late
But remember ...
Someone needs you there
To be his fate.

I refuse to spill my heart over any more pages for you.

How do I heal if I break every time I feel?

You used to spell my name with a smiley face in the C.

When I see that you still do sometimes
my heart sinks like a pebble thrown in your favorite lake,

            skipped across the waters surface,

                                         suddenly heavy again

                                                             with gravity and grief.

Black smoke on the mountain
bends over the moon like flies
around rines all fed up
with the night, like a bloated
face floating by in the river
sleeping through
death's long montage,
that dark mistress sipping
gin on a balcony with no wind,
her curtains still as a blanket
placed over the drowned.

I love you
a million stars and moons
Of planets we can't see

Be true to who you are,
Because you are amazing.

I feel like the color of
A post super moon sky
Like the last of the leaves on the wet,
Cold November tree
Hanging on for dear life
Like the flame that's too shy to really ignite
But breaks up the dark,
Grey dismal sky
Flashes of drowned out orange
Thrashing around
The post super moon sky

Poke at charred logs
Sparks lift and fall
With each gust of breath I blow
In the blink of an eye
Fire ignites
Warming my homeless bones