If you can't see anything
beautiful about yourself.
GET A BETTER MIRROR
look a little closer
STARE A LITTLE LONGER,
because there's something
inside you that made you
keep trying despite everyone
that told you to quit
          -Shane Koyczan

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F8SdkAgsoM4

Trails of blood,
Enclosed containers,
Riots on the street,
Resonating slowly in different cities and countries,
Overt terror,
Rapidly spreading,
Igniting flames on buses and buildings,
Scarring hearts of people,
Massacres in huge numbers.

Terminating innocence and replacing them with ****** flesh,
Orating words so full of pride and hate,
Daggers and guns being used mercilessly,
Assaulting the peace treaty,
Y**et they seem to be happy.

Sitting on a broken seat
You wait in the dim light
Cold hands and cold feet
Dreading the rest of the night

Tight skirts, loose tops
Every touch is always too much
Yet you hold your breath
and hide the pain
But there's a voice in your mind
That keeps you sane

I'm just a passerby
But I see you with my own eyes
I see your soul, I see your life
I love you
And
I know you are loved

I wish you were here
my best friend
with green eyes so clear.
I can swim in them
and feel the warmth again.
Tears of happiness
roll down my face
waves of emotions
like the blue,big ocean
fill my heart with desire
set me fri, get me higher
because our love is like fire.
Deep inside my heart
I am longing for your touch.
Gently hands,touches me softly
lips of temptation
what a beautiful creation.
of tenderness and happiness.
We are in love.
When I am closing my eyes
I can see the starts in your eyes
shines so bright,with endless light.
When I open my eyes
I can face it, it feels right
but I am alone in this moment
far away from you
and thats the truth.
I am longing for you
I wish you were here
with me ...

I cannot do this
With you.
I have nothing to run from.

You dream of escape.
A way out.
New, honeyscented beginning.

I like it here.
The bees all know
My name.

Not the kind that quenches your thirst,
but the kind that kills your fire.
It will drown your mind first,
then altogether your heart's desire.

He's The One
He's always there for me
Had a not-so-little crush on him
In 3rd grade

And I love him far as telescopes can see
I'm the only one who'll love him
'Till my last breath.

But then there's her
Who'll leave him
When the sun comes up

But he holds her tighter
He loves her more
All these emotions
Swirling 'round
Make my heart sore
He pulls her closer
They push me away
And oh my heart
How I long for him to say
"If you're willing still
Please have me
Do you love me?"

A few years pass
And he still holds her near
And my heartbeat still gets fast
When he walks toward me

I still love him far as telescopes can see
But she's got him in her grip
And won't let go

But then there's me
Standing in the background
Wishing he
Would hold me just as close

But he holds her tighter
He loves her more
All these emotions
Swirling 'round
Put me at war
He pulls her closer
They push me away
And oh, my mind
And heart and soul
Just scream and say
"Please leave her
I still want you
Do you love me?"

I'd found my  love
I'd found The One
I'd found my sweetheart
But there he was
He stole my heart
And now it's beating

He held her tighter.
He loved her more
All the emotions
Love, hate, anger
I'm at war.
He pulled her closer
They pushed me away
But now he's come
And says
"I've got something to say:
If you're willing still
Please have me
Could you love me?"

The sun shines right at me,
It makes me blind it stares at me
I could see my shadow next tome,
so bold and dark.
But the sun fixes that
When the sun from away into the clouds
The world start to darken
so dark and black
I wonder and wonder will it ever come back?

Life can be hard when your thoughts are messier than your bed could ever be.
Sentences, phrases, words, anything just racing around my mind.
Sometime I can sort them, catagorise them in a way that makes them easier to perceive.
But sometimes, that's not the case.
They twist and manipulate as if my mind is a kaleidoscope and every new thought just adds another fragment to the broken picture inside my head.
Maybe it would help to understand, or maybe it would just add to the confusion.
I wish I understood why my mind works like this, in these confusing an mysterious ways.
Perhaps one day I'll understand why they behave this way, but for now I'll continue trying to organise my racing thoughts.