Lucidity is overrated
I'll die high and forgetting

I think when I lost you
I lost myself
because I haven't felt the same ever since
And I miss you so much
But I know this feeling won't last forever
Why did you leave me here to die alone?

The difference between you and I is
You don't believe in remorse or regrets
and








I do.

I watched as all those months went by
Oh my how time flies

Didn't even know when the time was right.
I didn't know I was supposed to say goodbye

You left me stranded with my thoughts
How many times had we fought?

For all those days you sat in a hospital bed
It made my heart feel like lead

They told us you were coming home
But how were we to know?

**How were we to know you'd die and leave us all alone?

I asked for you,
but I didn't know your name,
I just imagined you laying there
among the clovers, all covered in dew.
And now I tear
all my parts into little pieces
so I can give them to you one-by-one:
in an envelope,
in a cursive letter,
in all the threads of a sweater,
in every footstep and fingerprint,
in every hue and every tint.
I give it all to you
little-by-little.

I was sick and high waiting for you to die
Still crying from all the lying
That brought us here
Where nightmare bears stare from
Blackened soot silt laden forest
Rotten flesh half metal to the bone
Like Russian krokodil addict
Nervous system trashed
Rotting from the inside
Only left with sickening regret
His name on your chest so
Can't ever forget