It's funny,
He thought to himself.
As the stubble on his chin grew
ever more coarse.
He had shaved it, of course,
to gain some sort of traction in his life,
to contain some sort of control.
Does he really have it?
Ultimately, he'd probably answer no,
but that has never stopped him anyway.
He still has her picture up in his room.
It's funny, because he realizes that he just realized this.
Yet he's so ready to let go.
He turned to whatever he could to wash away the her
he had created in his mind,
whatever felt good.
Be it ****, *******, alcohol, whatever...
It never made him feel "better".
He called it his "tantrum".
That made it fit to the letter.
And then it was over.
As if scales had fallen from his eyes,
and he saw everything for what it was,
and for who she was.
And thank the Good Lord,
he felt at peace again.
Breakups is hard, especially when you have a massive jumble of emotions that you don't know what to do with, and even if you did the whole "splitting up portion" yourself, if you love someone, that's hard.
I guess what I came to realize is that I loved my perception of someone, not the someone I was with... or I didn't love her in the way I thought I did. So there's that.