And then, I saw your eyes

Weak,
Tired,
Dark,
Bland

I can't hold my cries
My heart's squeezed so tight

I can no longer endure
The pain that my chest consumes


I've never seen you like this:
Vulnerable but still, clenched fists

I touched them ..

The softness of my touch
Removed the scrunch of your brows

Five seconds passed,
I see your eyes
Damp with tears




I'll never leave you
Never again

I'll take it back

Everything.

Take me back

Take us back

My love for you is like my finished story
I don't have one ////

4.57p.m.
I wonder,
Who else would look at the clock & think about life.
I'm tired & hungry & suicidal.
I want my exterior to be as broken
As my interior.
People only see the outside
And they don't understand what it's like
To have your mind pitch-black
And your body functioning on auto-pilot.
There's no break, no acceleration. Nothing.
You just do whatever your dark mind makes you do.

5.00p.m.
It's quiet here
With people minding their own business
Doing their own things.
I wonder,
Who else is like me
Trying to find a way back home.

My mind imagines this:

My body close to yours
My fingers entwined with yours
My foot across yours
My head inches away yours
My eyes staring deeply at yours

And then
Slowly

My lips lock with yours

At nightfall,
I'll sneak out
Hoping to catch
Your gleaming eyes
Staring at mine
Showing the message
My heart desires
Back when we
First laid eyes
Obviously showing
*Love at first sight

I'm really
really
in love
with
the feeling
of love
and
not
with
the feeling
of me
in love
with
*you.