maybe you put too much faith in me

i'm agnostic, apathetic, aromantic
and too much of an antagonist to never let you down

you could drown me,
make me suffer for my attitude;
but i'll not atone for my sins

remorse is for the empathetic
and i am just

empathetic minus the em

Tonight I cannot sleep
Tonight my brain refuses to listen when I tell her hush hush
Tonight my thoughts stay vivid in a battle of what I shall fear tomorrow and what I cannot wait for my future to bring
Tonight my mind has decided to cut out the use of punctuation and large words
Instead it has made the decision to stay up and closely study your breathing
Tonight my brain has decided to memorize each sleepy sound your body evokes in hopes that one night, some night soon, I will be able to recognize the patterns your heart decides to beat in
I will stay up tonight only to focus on the song your soul softly sings to me when you are fast asleep
I will stay up tonight only to memorize your song
Tonight I cannot sleep
Tonight my brain refuses to listen when I tell her hush hush
Tonight my ears stay ringing with the song that seeps through your exhausted lips
Tonight my mind has decided to put on a screenplay beginning with the first moment you entered my life and ending with

S. Mia
June 17, 2016

Pick me up.
Pick me up
and let's drive.
Let's drive away
and never look
back.
Let's talk about
everything that's
kept locked deep
in the catacombs
of our hearts.
Let's trust one
another,
just you and
me.
Grab my hand.
hold it tight.
Spill all.
I'll tighten my
grip, as goosebumps
appear on our
arms.
I'm here,
you're here.
We shouldn't worry.
I won't let you go,
if you don't let me go.

It's easier to burn a bridge
When it's drenched in gasoline.
And through the flickering,
As the structure is devoured,
I see them standing there.
But I don't care anymore.
You never deserved all I gave.
Just be thankful
That I didn't burn you along with the bridge.

i dont love her
i lied
i cant stop
i tried
i am strong
i cried
i am hope
i died