I had to convince myself to fall out of love to someone who was mean to me.

I get the picture

This isn't your first time breaking someone's heart

I had unspoken expectations for what was going to happen with us.
And that's honestly not your fault.

I cut it off so cleanly, but it was like a knife.
I cut it off so cleanly, but I couldn't stop looking backwards at the division I had made.

All of a sudden things shifted- you didn't put up a fight.

I wanted you to put up a fight.

The subtle cries, the sarcastic hurt.
But she was there the whole time- I didn't know about her.

So how dare you- how dare you act like I was your dream
When you made her believe you were her's.

loving him was like loving a hurricane when you're afraid of storms.

now that i've forgiven you
it's time for me to apologize
for putting you on that pedestal
that was so very high
it hurt when you fell off.

I think I’m stronger than any drug you tried

Cause I survived

The in and out again

I know I’m not your friend

Cause I was only worth the high

Your high

And I’m in and out again

Cause I know I’m not your friend

I’m the only one feeling tied

This is one hell of a love song

Finding I’m the one in love

This is one flash of a heartbreak

Finding pieces to pick up

And you are

Fading into the darkness

I remind myself you don’t give a ****

I was the one in love

I don't want to be afraid

I don't want to write out how I feel one more time and not press send

I don't want to keep wondering what you're thinking

I don't want to pull back from doing what I love just because it's rare

I don't want to stop writing

I don't want to be scared

I don't want to feel this much- but I do

I don't want to be so afraid from pursing my dream because of the position my grandfather has assumed

I don't want to wonder what it's like to love- I want to love people til I can see it

I want to pray more- because if I am loved, I want to believe it

I don't want to be afraid