I had unspoken expectations for what was going to happen with us.
And that's honestly not your fault.
I cut it off so cleanly, but it was like a knife.
I cut it off so cleanly, but I couldn't stop looking backwards at the division I had made.
All of a sudden things shifted- you didn't put up a fight.
I wanted you to put up a fight.
The subtle cries, the sarcastic hurt.
But she was there the whole time- I didn't know about her.
So how dare you- how dare you act like I was your dream
When you made her believe you were her's.
I don't want to be afraid
I don't want to write out how I feel one more time and not press send
I don't want to keep wondering what you're thinking
I don't want to pull back from doing what I love just because it's rare
I don't want to stop writing
I don't want to be scared
I don't want to feel this much- but I do
I don't want to be so afraid from pursing my dream because of the position my grandfather has assumed
I don't want to wonder what it's like to love- I want to love people til I can see it
I want to pray more- because if I am loved, I want to believe it
I don't want to be afraid
I had to convince myself to fall out of love to someone who was mean to me.
isn't it weird how people have to tear themselves out of the hands of people who hurt them? I pray you know that you are worth it. Trust me, you are.
You broke me most with the words you didn't say.
And this is what I'd say to the next girl:
Don't get close enough for him to tell you you're worth something.
Because at some point, the roles will be reversed
And you'll be left wondering what he's worth
And the only message you'll hear is silence.
But maybe this is a lesson in how not to hate someone who doesn't hate you, doesn't love you, doesn't care.
Because this is what he's taught you: that you are only worth his time under certain parameters.
You made me feel butterflies
Contingent on the harsh reality that
I wasn't exactly what you wanted
But for a moment I thought I was
// when the feeling subsides
I think I’m stronger than any drug you tried
Cause I survived
The in and out again
I know I’m not your friend
Cause I was only worth the high
And I’m in and out again
Cause I know I’m not your friend
I’m the only one feeling tied
This is one hell of a love song
Finding I’m the one in love
This is one flash of a heartbreak
Finding pieces to pick up
And you are
Fading into the darkness
I remind myself you don’t give a ****
I was the one in love
"She had a mind
that he was not ready for
behind that pretty little face."
I still miss the way you looked at me
with that tantalized look in your eye.
I wish that I could have been your fairytale,
and you could have been mine.
I'm fighting for my mind,
I'm fighting to not break apart
and to not be blind.
Is it Love
I get the picture
This isn't your first time breaking someone's heart
— The End —