Waking up is like winning a game of chess with death you close your eyes at night and just lay their lifeless not moving not talking just their your heart hardly beating lungs just breathing mind off in another world then you wake and your body comes back to life death lost this round but will he win next time

Im So cold my soul it grows old blackness in my eyes can't see past the lies I want to be heard but its hard with no voice this life and how I live is my choice you can't tell me what's right  and what's wrong  I've been singing this for far to long

I wander if,    
             When he,
                    Fell,
                        Did he scream,
                              Did he yell,
                                     Was he heart broken,
                                               D
                                                I
                                               D
                                           Tears fall
                                                 D
                                                    O
                                                       W
                                                           N
                                                              His cheeks,
                                               When his own father,
                                                        Banished him,
                                                            To Hell,
                   GOD DO YOU MISS HIM? ARE YOU SO SICK INSIDE THAT THE ANGEL YOU CREATED IS CAPABLE OF SUCH HORROR.

Do you remember laying next to me in my arms for the first time how it felt to hold my hand when I said that I loved you remember when I would text you good morning beautiful hours before you'd wake can you remember how I would stay up all night just in case you needed someone to talk to remember when you left and you said you would always love me remember when you told me that you are in love with him and you were sorry that you broke my heart remember when I couldnt breath with out you

She awakes torn apart from the pain deep in her heart mind full of self hate she can't wait till the end gun to her head pulls the trigger sleep softly my dear no more pain for you in the dark close your eyes tight for soon you'll be alright no more screams that haunt your beautiful dreams

The taste of her lips the feel of her hips the way she loves me makes me want more my hands on her the soft moans she makes the whole room quakes love passion and lust screams and pains a must

Eyes full of blood not knowing if I'm gonna make it but **** I gotta try bones broke but I won't stop I have to make it to the top even though I have nothing I work so hard just to see it all fall apart should've known from the start I aint no rapper or a **** but I can end your life with this gun one shoot it stops no more pain dont take this life in vain start doing good be who you should make a better life before you end up dead I know I'm sick in the head but you don't know what I do you have no clue let me make it clear I'll hit you with my truck and treat you like a dead deer all I want is a nice life something I want to wake up to but because *** holes sit home liven off the government to you a bullet I sent and say the next one comes faster you bastered I got this pain in my soul and dark side that wants to make them all die and no matter how I try he's gonna take you and make you pay take back what you say ***** or end up on my hit list weighting this I'm getting ****** cause all you thing think I'm wack so you better watch your back I'm coming and no force can take me just wait and see