4:30am wake up rub eyes get dressed coffee needed 5:00am out the door have to hurry to work 5:55am just made it 6:00am work starts mindlessly working 9:00am coffe break 9:15am mindlessly working self doubt beginning to creep in 12:00pm lunch break no money so I just sit at the table 12:30pm back to work self hatred works its way in 3:15pm leave work to head home 4:10pm  finally home self hatred and doubt working my mind 7:30pm hot bath to ease my mind 8:20pm water is no longer warm 8:45pm neighbors hear a gun shot 9:30pm man found dead single gun shot to head apparent suicide 10:15pm note found says no longer am I bound I am finally free

I AM FACELESS I HAVE NO EYES MY NOSE IS NON EXISTENT MY MOUTH IS NO WHERE TO BE SEEN I WATCH OVER YOU AND YOU NEVER KNOW I CAN STAND RIGHT BEHIND YOU AND WHISPER HATE AND SADNESS INTO YOUR HEAD AND SOUL I WILL BREAK YOU DOWN SO I CAN FEED AND ONCE THERE IS NOTHING LEFT OF YOU I LEAVE TO FIND ANOTHER MY NAME IS depression

This is my last will and testament
I have done many Terrible unspeakable things. By far the worst is what i have done to you my baby brother. Who knew know better. I leave all i have to the love of my life. The only one insane enough. To stay by my side, all these year.
My only regret is never telling you who i truly am and, what i did. I was 17 you just a boy of 12. Mother and father took you to your favorite movie. I left home to do your chores because i was born out of wedlock named with a ******* name, and hidden from the world. I took your beatings and punishments. Never speaking out never. I hired the man just to scare you, mother and father. It wasn't supposed to end the way it did. I'm sorry Bruce. I'm sorry i left you the way i did. I'm sorry i made Alfred promise to never tell you. The one thing i will never regret is what i made you and I.
Love your brother Joseph Kane
The Joker

She awakes torn apart from the pain deep in her heart mind full of self hate she can't wait till the end gun to her head pulls the trigger sleep softly my dear no more pain for you in the dark close your eyes tight for soon you'll be alright no more screams that haunt your beautiful dreams

I am nothing I have nothing I was born nothing and I will always be this way I can never change what I am but I will be better than you for you are below me you are less than nothing but we are the same we strive to have more and be better but we never will be we will only get worse than nothing and when we finally see what we have done there will be no turning back we will sink deeper into our nothingness and once we are all gone we will ask why and we will never find the truth and we will be stuck with our nothingness
You are nothing but so am I

i should just say what needs to be said
i should stop putting myself down
i should just do it
i should live life the way i want
i should run away
i should leave it all behind
i should never of said those things
i should have never fell in love
i should find what makes me happy
i should feel young
i should help others
i should laugh more
i should find a way  
i should smile more
i should just start over.

He walks a road,
looking for truth
when he finds himself,
lost and cold.
He turns to the one thing he lost
"my love,
are you there?
Can you hear me?"
Silence is all he heard.
He goes down to his knees,
he began to sob,
cries louder than the screams
of lost souls.
Slowly he fell in to the silence
and became a part of it

I drink to find the answers if I get to the bottom of the flask I'll get what I need to keep going just one more and I know it will tell me if I stop now I'll never know if I don't have one more it will never become clear just one more and I'll learn the truth the reason why she left

You come home and no one is there its quiet very quiet you yell out to see if someone is home but nothing you walk to your room and sit on the edge of your bed and you hear someone laughing you walk out and nothing no one is there its just quiet you begin to feel cold you walk to the door its dark already where did the time go the laugher comes back you turn and you see it standing there smiling at you soulless eyes empty and lost starring into you it moves to you but you can't move you're numb the quiet has you in its grasp you're trapped never to be free again lost in a cold quiet world tears run down your face as you try to scream but no sound can be heard you are no longer here you are gone never to be found

You wake up to a painful alarm.
Feet hitting the floor you start your day.
With no feeling you shower and dress.
No breakfast needed.
The drive to work slow but rushed.
Work starts with a shouting boss.
More more more more.
Work drags on.
Lunch.
Tears welling up.
Work starts again.
Numbness and empty paper work.
The days end.  
The drive home slower not rushed.  
Home finally.  
Sleep bed darkness.  
Blank dreams filled with screams.
You wake up to a painful alarm.

Waking up is like winning a game of chess with death you close your eyes at night and just lay their lifeless not moving not talking just their your heart hardly beating lungs just breathing mind off in another world then you wake and your body comes back to life death lost this round but will he win next time

You really think you cool running around like a fool thinking youre funny screaming I got money you got me at a loss acting like yous a boss trying to **** when you nothing but bug you have no education smoking **** everyday liven that life you say but you don't get paid you're broke this life you live is just a joke don't ever step to a real because blood you'll choke I'm not saying not to have fun just do t run around pulling a gun acting  like a **** cause you will never be get a job and get paid you're better than that fake *** life you liven turn it around and start given but you can't and you won't cause you are nothing but a joke

Whoops my bad I'm sorry for the way I act its not my fault I never got to meet my dad no **** that i don't need him my legacy is about to begin let's go everyone come with me let's have some sin I dont give a **** because my flows legit better keep your mouth shut or you'll get hit I'll split your lip then I'll unzip and **** this whole rap game itll never be the same while you're sitting back smoking your **** I'm over here planting my seed you cant stop this perfection is what I **** you don't wanna be on my list you're ******* with the best better put on your bullet proof vest my word coming at you faster than a 50 cal so sit back and listen for a while

I can no longer fight for I have lost all sight of what is truly right I feel a sickness coming over me like no other so cold and yet I sweat my body numb I know I'm alive be look dead to some no longer can I walk words unheard can not talk if there is a god show me my door for I fight no more

If it was easy everyone would do it.
To forgive and forget. Not my strong suit, but I try. Not many times have I gave up. Today I have. Not only have it given up, but I'm stuck with what I've done. No about of sorry and please I'll fix it.  Will ever work to mend things. Let me move forward and make life better. Only if

Lord forgive me for I'm about to sin my wickedness has yet to begin better line up those hearses cause I'm killing mother ******* with my verses this world is so ****** a cops defends by shooting a black guy and everyone loses there **** mind they riot and fight for there right but when you say our soilders have to live on the street they won't help and never make a peep learn before you speak and don't pretend to defend the weak

Eyes full of blood not knowing if I'm gonna make it but **** I gotta try bones broke but I won't stop I have to make it to the top even though I have nothing I work so hard just to see it all fall apart should've known from the start I aint no rapper or a **** but I can end your life with this gun one shoot it stops no more pain dont take this life in vain start doing good be who you should make a better life before you end up dead I know I'm sick in the head but you don't know what I do you have no clue let me make it clear I'll hit you with my truck and treat you like a dead deer all I want is a nice life something I want to wake up to but because *** holes sit home liven off the government to you a bullet I sent and say the next one comes faster you bastered I got this pain in my soul and dark side that wants to make them all die and no matter how I try he's gonna take you and make you pay take back what you say ***** or end up on my hit list weighting this I'm getting ****** cause all you thing think I'm wack so you better watch your back I'm coming and no force can take me just wait and see

The taste of her lips the feel of her hips the way she loves me makes me want more my hands on her the soft moans she makes the whole room quakes love passion and lust screams and pains a must

Do you remember laying next to me in my arms for the first time how it felt to hold my hand when I said that I loved you remember when I would text you good morning beautiful hours before you'd wake can you remember how I would stay up all night just in case you needed someone to talk to remember when you left and you said you would always love me remember when you told me that you are in love with him and you were sorry that you broke my heart remember when I couldnt breath with out you

Rabble  rabble rabble babble babble babble I'm gonna lay down a little rap my mind bout to snap freak on all this I was raised on hi my name is I'm ****** in the head I laugh when I find a loved one is dead no wonder why I'm single palms so hairy its scary running around with a ******* looking sick  like I'm running a marathon ******* in the air as the judge tells me I'm getting the chair life ain't fair I'm not sorry I'm so crazy get off me can't you see I'm not alone I got voices in my head as your girl in my bed come get me I wanna die but just know once you try me you never gonna be the same I can't be tamed I'm like a god no I am god can't you see I'm more power full got more skills that **** and slay dragons I'm a knight not in shining armor but ****** and beating watching as your fat *** is eating up my rhymes let me tell you about my times......

Follow me to the hill and find what I've seen. Follow me and all will be well. No worries in your mind.  All will be explained in time. Follow me to the hill and you will see. Just beyond the hill is our home. Walls built not with brick but bone. Follow me and see the dead.  To see them all rise and your soul fills with dread.  Follow me from the beginning to end. For tonight we all feast on your head.

Youre nothing sick and sad
Eyes dark as old blood
Skin pale and cracked
Breath of vomite and bile
a voice that makes ears bleed
Skin and bones is all you are
Disgusting and vile
Others may not see it
I know its true
Remember when I loved you

Is this life real do we have control over what we do when we say I love you is it the truth why do we say one thing then do another why do we hate some and  adore others do we have control over who we are
I'm stumbling over my words I don't what I'm doing any more some one tell me what and who is real I can't handle anymore of THIS

First I'm sorry there's no reason for my actions. All I can say is I did it and, and it made me happy it made me better. Nights filled with screams and pain. Days with the false impression of love and hope. Slowly I walk to a place of good just to feel.  Nothing I do from here out is your fault. Just know i am trying and I'm sorry, what I do next will be swift and easy.  Just one pull and it's done.

Im So cold my soul it grows old blackness in my eyes can't see past the lies I want to be heard but its hard with no voice this life and how I live is my choice you can't tell me what's right  and what's wrong  I've been singing this for far to long

We are the unwanted the ones who hid in the shade
We are the unwanted the few with a crimson glazed blade
We are the unwanted the left behind
We are the unwanted and we will no longer cry
We are the unwanted and today is are time

I scream at you I'll make you cry they and keep up with me I bet you can't I spit so fast that you'll fall fast on your *** I can put you on blast watch me melt these words like no other as I bend over your mother you can touch me I'll make you bleed then I'll plant my seed and laugh at your grave I am brave come try me so you can see my words are my weapon I'll take over the world and you'll be in tears and you'll be my slave for the rest of your years just try me

I live in a world of hate and pain no one knows the pain of trying to move on to find what I truly want in this world everything is so cruel and yet we never really change we just do what we always do hurt the weak and find the rich life is a ***** and I can nothing about it