When I made the decision
    To say what must be said
        I found out my love
            Was already dead...

I'm ambivalent
Ambivalence is the state
Wherein a person is torn
Between two opposing decisions

Will I stay or Will I go?
Will I laugh or Will I cry?
Will I live or Will I die?

Torn between two opposing decisions
That can cause me my life
These are questions I ask myself
Everyday...

I'm ambivalent...

When at 12 midnight
    My heart beats a certain pace,
        I finally turn off the lights
          As tears stream down my face

And now I look from here
   The chances I have wasted
      But the only chances I have wasted
         Were those I never wanted