but the scars
on your arms
aren't as bad
as the screams
in your head

I want to feel something
I'm ******* numb
emotions don't exist
for me anymore
why do I keep trying
to feel something
that only exists
in ******* romance
novels?
******* NICHOLAS SPARKS!!

You're in my veins and the only way to get you out is to bleed out until I'm nothing.
*but I'm already close to being nothing