"I'm an open book"
She says

Written in
code.

point.
triangle.
center,
of the universe.
spellbound syllables
reverberations
from the base
of the spine
three snakes
kundalini shakti
transcending
past the granthis
electric current
At the top of my head
losing control
eyes closing
into the bliss of nothingness

Not a single person has caused me as much pain as you have, other then myself of course

Theyll never know.
They dont see me for who i am.
They see the version of me that they want to see
Smiling and happy
Laughing and bubbly
Sometimes it makes me sick.
But despite it all
I go back to them everyday
With the same old mask plastered on my face
And pretend im happy.
I do it for them.
I do it for everyone.
They dont need to see the real me, because
They might leave if they did.