Are you killing me or saving me?
Haunting me or catching me?
Pulling me or pushing me away?

Empty to the brim
I couldn't look at him
The last the last the last time
He raised his head and breathed a sigh
And he walked away into the night

Yelling screaming into the crowd
Searching searching for a face
But he was gone into the dark's embrace

But it was a dream a dream of romance a dream of bliss
A dream just a dream explains that kiss
Cause the only way I can stop myself from going after him
It was a dream a dream of sin

It was your last day, when we were driving in the car and we joked about running away.

We had so many things we wanted to do together, but now I guess it doesn't really matter.

We should have run when we had the chance, I never taught you how to dance.

Three days since I first saw you
Three days since we first met
Just three days since I first saw you
So of course I don't want it to end

I've been stuck in a place
That I couldn't get out of
Stuck in a point of no return
I've been stuck in this pattern
That I couldn't get out of
So far down I couldn't find the right turn

I've had this problem since I was little
Of wanting things that couldn't be
Of living in a day dream
Of living in a fantasy
But the crash got too hard
For a girl like me to bear
I couldn't stand the pain or the constant terror

You showed me I could get out
You showed me the way
You showed me that I could breath
That I don't have to fade away

And I know it wasn't important
I know it wasn't big
But you changed my life forever
You've changed my will to live

You're gone and no amount of music will bring you back to me.

You can't be the reason I don't take
the pills

You can't be the reason I don't pick up
the blade

You can't be the reason I stay here
I have to be

I'm seeing you again for the first time

Within a second I'll know if you still love me
Within an instant I'll know if the feeling is still there
Within a moment I'll know if I will spend the rest of my nights on the bathroom floor in tears or wrapped in your embrace

And part of me doesn't want to look
Part of me wants to just close my eyes
Or not even bother to open the door at all
Part of me wants to move on and try to fill the void with boys who will never know me

But all of me needs you
All of me wants you
All of me is living for a hope that may never come