The funny thing about meeting people
Is that we never know what significance that they may have in our life
That stranger you just made eye contact with?
They may be the person that you didn't know you needed.
Just give it time, soon enough you'll talk, you'll become friends
And friends may sometimes become more than you ever anticipated.
That stranger? It'll come to a point where you won't be able to see your life without them.

I know you want to include me when you socialize with your friends.
And I know you feel bad when you leave me to the side.
I see the way you are with your friends,
How happy you are to talk and joke and just be around them.
And I encourage you to get out more.
But you won't just leave me behind.
I keep you from enjoying yourself, despite you telling me otherwise.
You can't hide that from me.
I watch you, believe it or not, and I see that I'm holding you back.
But I want you to know that I'll be okay, off by myself.
You have another life outside of me that doesn't need to be shared.
We may live as one, as a team, but we're still two separate people.
I'm fine all by myself with  book to read, or a movie to watch.
I enjoy getting lost within my own little world
Or doing things on my own.
I've never been good at being around people,
My sick mind holds me back from enjoying myself with them.
I've come to accept that this is who I am.
And it's far from who you are.
Don't worry about me when I tell you to do things for yourself,
Because nothing would make me happier than to see my partner enjoying himself.
Don't sacrifice your life for me.

I watched the leaves rustle and dance
In the towering trees above me
Reaching for the stretching skies.
Getting lost within the expanse
Of the Galaxy that lay
Just beyond my fingertips.

Everything fell apart,
Her heart and mind, a mess.
But what did she do
During her all time low?
She pushed through
And became stronger
Than she ever was

I'd like to go for a drive
Leave this place behind for a while
Taking to the path beyond
Watching as every unfamiliar road
Passes me by
One…
   By one..
      By one…
Finding myself in unknown towns
In far away places
Satisfying this desire
To be anywhere else but here
I want to just…
        Go...
Until I find the place where my heart longs to be

I'm getting cold
And I'm not talking the physical cold
Not like the cold you feel when there's an absence of warmth
I'm talking a coldness that starts at the base of my skull
That spreads through my body and my brain
It's the kind of cold that brings a feeling of despair and empitness.
No amount of blankets or warm fires or even hot coffees
Can warm me from the dead winter inside my mind

Today, I feel extra heavy,
Each movement, taking more effort than normal.
My mind is feeling clouded,
A dense fog settling in every crevasse.
Today, I am tired.
Not the I-didn't-get-enough-sleep kind of tired,
But an exhaustion of the mind and body.
To describe how I feel, only two words come to mind,
"Chemical imbalance"
Two words that tell me that how I feel isn't real
It's only the result of my brain feeling sick.
But what if I'm truly just sad?
What if everything I feel is real?
The thing about what ifs is that they're sad
They're depressing.
Thinking of the things that could be,
What if things could be happier,
Or what if things could be worse.
And what if the thing wrong with my brain
Is just sadness, pure and simple.
Sadness could be fixed,
Sadness doesn't need medication.
But sadness could last forever.
A soul stuck in a world that it doesn't belong,
A place where it was never meant to be.
That's how I feel.
I don't belong.
I never belonged.
I am missing a part of me,
The part that fills the dark hole in my chest.
A hole that reminds me of loneliness,
No matter what, it'll always be there.
And maybe that's the cause of this
Chemical imbalance
The possible ****** up part of my brain.
The flaw that can be fixed with drugs.
The flaw that is my mind.
Maybe I'll be okay
But then maybe I won't.