I don’t know how to cope with you
I don’t understand you
I’ve been living with you for almost all my life
And yet I can’t get use to you!
I gave you a place to stay cuz no one wants you
I fed you my problems and you made them worst
I damaged my body the one you call home
I made it look ugly hoping you’ll go
I filled my body with poison hoping I’d **** you
But I just can’t get rid of you

Whats there to loose when ive lost it all
Its not the same anymore everything is about to fall
No one hears me cry im hurting deep inside
The only thing thts helping me cope is this wonderful dope
The feeling of being numb just calms me dwn actin dumb
No one cant replace her ima love her forever
Im just sick of being mistreated
Im constantly hurting
Its not good but i got a couple of grudges im still holding
Is this how im suppose to live my life
I fall asleep with tears in my eyes
I hate having withdrawals its a constant reminder im still alive ..?

Haven't eaten in two days
Put it on blast
Im fasting on keys
This white girl keeps harrasing me
Lowkey i hate what its turned poor Ashley
Didnt mean to become what i said i wouldn't
Made fun of the ones who couldn't
Now i tell myself i shouldn't
But beg her to please shoot it
Highkey i love the ride it provides
Indulge my soul let it slip inside
No pain to when i puncture but i lie
Remind myself why
Then who
To where did i met and looked into her eyes
I sit there and conversate with the love of my life i guess im not straight lesbian crush on Crissy shes always on my mind and ill **** with her till the day i stop dreaming
Till the day i stop puffing and heaving
Basically stop breathing
My holy trinity

Im falling down and i cant stop slipping
Mirror flips the frown as the coke starts dripping
Got me trippen on the memories of all the chopped lines
And i always run back to it every ******* time
Lost my mind in the state of the Californi-A
Got my mind state stating that i can not stay away
Cuz we play where we shouldn't commit crimes that you wouldn't
Even if i gave you the opportunity i bet you couldn't
Gotta gut it till its dry watch the dollars multiply
And all it really provides is the dope to get you high
Don't rely on the folks who relax- they'll set you back
Gotta keep your palms open keep em choking till the sacks
Are distributed, contributed to feed the addiction
Prohibited from living i proceed to enlist em
Running up
Then coming out
Then coming up
Then running out

Haven't slept in a while im runnin out of breath
My appetite aint vital the pain inside my chest building up into a fire
Dug my own precious grave becoming the devil's slave
Loosing all my hope being left all alone
the only open window lead me to dope
dope
Twistn the pipe or doin a line shooting up finding a way to get high
Don't even care about these  bruises in my arms i don't mean self-harm
Im loosing weight getting questioned if im okay im not about to change cuz she makes me feel sane
Makin me numb forgetting about everything just having  fun!

I know i got a pretty face but dont get it twisted
I bet you wouldn't even last a day in this ****
Broken smile evil in the eyes roaming thru the streets battling the concrete ..