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Arianna Anderson Dec 2011
A tragic simile to compare
An unfortunate situation that left me bare
Attempt to ****** me, you wouldn’t dare
A rumor that abolished my affair

The blaze that melted my lip stain
Red and purple upon my window pane
An enduring week that has me drained
In order to live I had to abstain

Your trust in me was just a dream
You ripped open the heart of my seam
Shot down by your merciless beams
No generosity for me, intolerance it seems

Revenge in your heart was in the past
Malevolence is sure to last
A never ending resentment cast
Upon your heart full of grief
Arianna Anderson Jun 2012
No words can express my HATRED
So much rage boils in my soul
Violently shaking from fierce emotions
Anger devouring me whole

No words can express my IRRITATION
Silence or I will soon snap
Strapped down by my fierce emotions
The clock times my awaited attack

No words can express how much I DESPISE
You, and only you
Sneakily you slip away the only that mattered to me
That moment you soon will rue

No words can express how much I LOATHE
You, and myself too
For letting you get away with it
For letting myself hold in all this animosity that is new

No words can express
No black or white magic can take it back
What YOU did
You, and only you...
Arianna Anderson Dec 2011
Intertwined
Your hands grasping mine and I gasp
It's our first time
So intimate but I laugh
We don't know what goes where
Or how this works
But it feels so good
Arianna Anderson Apr 2012
The smoke tainted my lungs
Hung, around my precious air it
swung
To erase
To escape
To forget that atrocious
MEMORY
remember, remember, remember...ing
The pattern of the stars, they were
Linger...ing
on our pupils
"Pupils", her thoughts... aloud
They interrupted out loud
Proud
Found.
I was never found under the smoke;
Praying to forget,
MEMORY
Arianna Anderson Jan 2012
I want to see you without your flesh
Your stained bones crumbling from no protection
Your blood polluting its new atmosphere
No signs of perfection

Allow me to you without your flesh
Your flaws being the best canvas
Your soul glowing from the core
With your rotten personality sealed around it
Arianna Anderson Jul 2012
Her brunette hair flows with the wind
Caught in the branches of fall
Pale as the tips of her nails
Her tongue prolonged with a drawl

She's beautiful
Even without the long locks in her face
No taste for cuisine
Her gloom adopts her taste

The wind supports her dainty feet
Delicately built out of glass
She's beautiful
Arianna Anderson Jan 2012
I stare at the time
That points and laughs
Mocking my anguish
I wish we had enough moments
Enough moments to finish our laughter
Finish our masks to hide the pain
My paint hasn't quite finished drying
You decorate yours with purity
But no need, for you're an angel

I stare at the time
Counting down my hours of life
Each breath getting thinner
I wish we had enough moments
Enough moments to think of what we're doing
Finish our jokes written in blood
My joke was never as funny as yours
You painted yours with purity
But no need, for you're an angel
Arianna Anderson Nov 2012
My waves of sensuality I blow toward you
Feeding you mega bites of sensations
Typing up equations of forever
And blowing up your notifications

Sit down with me and tell me about your unknown
Let me send you love through a screen
Kisses in parenthesis and moans in capitals
The brain making up what it hasn't seen

Our fingers create the problems
Typing up mistakes and regrets
The distance forever wounding our thoughts
The finish line we haven't met

Soon my love
Soon.
Although my heart and soul is in Texas, I shall wait until the day we met. I will forever be in his *******, my Love for Eric will never wither.
Dad
Arianna Anderson Nov 2012
Dad
You don't even deserve the title.

My fake smiles that took hours in plastic surgery
The hugs I give you just to feel like I'm one of your kids
You say I love you as if you meant it
"I'll take care of you" but you never did

The forgotten child.. The middle child
All in the same
I can trust no one
And you are to blame

I promise you.. I swear on it..
You make those seem like prepositions
Used so often that I don't even notice anymore
I loathe you, I forgot to mention

It's not only me you hurt
You've hurt my mother as well
Physically, emotionally, and financially
So with that said... Go to hell
I know he's my parent in all but... he does nothing, he's all *******. And he's only that way with me.
my other siblings and their mothers have no issue but I guess I was born into the curse.
Arianna Anderson Oct 2015
There are periods at the end of sentences that call for silence
My whole life seems to be that pause
Because when I wake up I seem to always feel alone
Whether to not even try that day is a simple coin toss

Everyone sees me as being so strong
But the strongest people are just better at hiding it
Because when I look into the mirror I am not pleased
My pride is a gag and I am biting it

When you pour water into a cup
there's a certain extent before it becomes overflow
Allow me to be the silhouette of a porcelain glass
And my unexpressed emotions have no where to go

But it's never been a trend to admit you're scared
Scared that you might turn on yourself
Because sometimes I feel like something takes over
Covering my mouth from crying for help
Arianna Anderson Dec 2012
There was this glimpse of hope in your eyes
Behind your physical state I could see more
A breath of eternity sounded like a deep roar
A deep chuckle of happiness

Still on my journey to find what love is
But I kept stumbling upon the definition of betrayal
Monsieur, aidez- moi.. my heart is trembling and frail
With a glow; with a glimmer you held out your hand
Arianna Anderson Jun 2012
A hallow center with flesh around it
That's me
A porcelain doll waiting to be used
My analogy

Don't come back for me because of pity
Don't touch me
I don't need anything from you
I don't need anybody

I'm perfectly fine.
Arianna Anderson Jan 2012
Let me just lie here on your tongue
And soak up
every
word
you
expose
Inhale every sentence revealed
And bathe in each
syl
la
ble
Allow me to record your thoughts
A video of only me
Weaving through your mind
Arianna Anderson Mar 2012
Traipsing around your own obscurities
A little triangle; you're own trinity
I put a blind eye up to your window of equivocalness
I wasn't positive if you were that in to me

It's not just little crush for you, it's an obsession
Engrossed, hiding behind your false complexion
Everything was familiarly desolating
Who would've known you were enticed by your own progression

Stuck in your game of disturbing affliction
Years and years of built up absorbed addiction
Framed or ashamed of your heartless indulgence
The lies you hide underneath your table, caught fire from excessive friction
Arianna Anderson Aug 2012
I wish you could suffocate on the words just like I did
Choke
And then you spoke
a gasp
clasp... those hands on your still beating heart

It hurts doesn't it?

To have it break
when you breathe it shakes
an earthquake
of karma
Dharma tattooed on your left arm
Fully armed with promises
Fully armed with *****
but I wouldnt give one
To you who took advantage
To those that watched
I clocked out the moment I found out
Yes, I found out
About the hidden words written in your words
And when that occurred
I was done
Done
Arianna Anderson Jul 2012
Yeah, no, shut up
Your sarcastic remarks can follow the stick
straight up your ***

I was your pavement
You took daily walks down my street
And I gave you a golden pass

I hope you had a good laugh
With those friends that will probably go bald in about two years
And have kidney cancer in about four

You're so cool because you have girls lining up
But pay no attention to the herpies on her lip
Just keep cuddling up to that overused *****

I was your first black girl
yay for jungle fever
And I will probably be your last

So go in the mirror
Look at your *******
Continue your routine and shove it up your ***
Arianna Anderson Dec 2012
Its the way you smile
When you see my face
It's your clever syntax
Revealing your intelligence
Your protective ways
Makes me feel at home
I'm just glad to call you mine.

Its your calming voice
And your defensive mind
That calms my panic
When I get anxious
But you deal with my craziness
And my broken spirit
I'm just glad to call you mine.

Though this seems way too easy
It's actually pretty complex
If you think about it
It's your eager tone
It's your confident smirks
And your modest composure
That makes me glad to call you mine.
I
Arianna Anderson Jun 2012
I
SOMEONE LISTEN TO ME!
jus.... just for a second please
I yell and I scream and I...
am what you asked for, right?
I paint that pretty picture you requested
and still
AND STILL
I am overlooked
overshadowed by plastic
I just want to love and be loved
I dress up and I smile and I...
am what you prayed for right?
I sparkle in the sun with my pearly whites
and still
AND STILL
I an rejected
neglected by everyone
SOMEONE LISTEN TO ME!
I'm gonna do it... I'm going to...
be walked over and invisible and..
no one will even notice, right?
Just slowly dissolving into my background...
Arianna Anderson Jan 2012
"You
Sick
*******"

I spotted a glimpse of your corrupted smile
hovering over my tainted body
That has been painted with repulsiveness
And sealed with your perverted kisses

"You
Sick
*******"

Trying to catch my breathe that rebels against me
Searching for a god to pray to
Your hands exploring my unknown
As you look down at your precious little girl
Arianna Anderson Jan 2012
I looked in the mirror and saw what was not
The lines of my architecture now curved
Disoriented by what is true
I take it out on my self, perturbed

Misguided to think I was alive
But little does anyone know I'm walking flesh
To tell me otherwise
I am obligated to object
Arianna Anderson Jun 2016
I’ve never been one to stop and look at the clouds
Until you became the sun that rises and shines behind
You never know that you’re missing something until you find it
Anxiety pulls at my attention but it’s you that steals my mind

I see you in the atomic ribbing of strawberries
So humbly sweet although having every reason to be boastful
I smell you in the subtle mist of coconuts
Delicate and dainty but so alluring that I crave a nose full

Your eyes tell a million stories with every blink
I could read them like an English major’s passion
I see a lot of you in my reflection
I could wear everyone else’s smile but that’s not my sense of fashion

The words slip my grip when trying to describe this sense of déjà vu
I get a familiar fulfillment every time our eyes lock
Consume me with your aura and devour me with your vibe
There’s no limit to us when we’ve once lived off the clock
Arianna Anderson Feb 2012
Your pompous smirk shakes my core
Violating my thoughts, you know you've won
My woeful cries wishes for your attention
An obvious cry out for affection, you think we're done

Please enlighten me on what flaws of mine get under your skin
Violating my ego, you know you've won
My constant apologies blooming from my ironic regret
An obvious invitation to take my all, you think we're done

I realize that it will take fortnights to rebuild our island
Violating my hope, you know you've won
My blatant loneliness only calls for you
An obvious cry out for affection, you think we're done
Arianna Anderson Jul 2012
Inhale.
Exhale.
Inhale.
Exhale.
It takes too much thought to smell the flowers
Intricate waves of lavender and pollen
Tangled through my senses
Bees yonder, contemplating and stalling
Inhale.
Long Exhale.
Sigh of relief
A boulder lifted from my thoughts
Is this peace?
Or time that I'm glad I bought
Arianna Anderson Jan 2013
Oh how the simple thought of you gives me joy
Its like I can taste your love
Swimming around my tongue, your love
Like the strings of a guitar, it sings to me, your love

Oh how the simple sight of your smile sends tingles through my flesh
Its like I can breathe your love
Scraping the walls of my lungs, your love
Like a sparrow in flight, its soars in me, your love

Oh how the sound of your gentle voice sends me elsewhere
Its like I can see your love
Blanketing my pupils, your love
Like the sun, it catches my attnetion, your love
Arianna Anderson Jul 2012
It's been long
It's been tough
But I found hope
I found ups
But the pain made it worse for tomorrow

I've seen worse
I've seen death
But I'm dramatic
But I regret
Telling you about my plans for tomorrow

I've got God
I've got desserts
But in my head
It still hurts
So I'll save that thought for tomorrow

It's not worth it
They all say
So I wash it to the back
And watch rise another day
Maybe it'll come sooner than tomorrow
Arianna Anderson Apr 2017
I am a reflection of your creation
A fruit bared from your inventive womb
My inimitable genetic make up parallels my life story
A puzzle never debunked; the apple never to consume

I am a reflection of your creation
Unfortunately every mirror is bound to fog
I am the bridge between heaven and earth
Let your decision be the inevitable epilogue

I want to be a reflection of your creation
With frequencies and wavelengths understood
Every genetic makeup contains your fingerprint
Intelligence was blurred but wisdom was good
Arianna Anderson Oct 2012
Breathe in my words
I want you to ******* truth
Let it wrap around your tongue
Weaving through your taste buds as I speak
Stuttering across my compliments
You can't comprehend such an uplifting exhale
Adopting a new smile
The smile of knowledge
The smile of acceptance
Embracing the aura of who've
Who've you become?
Who've you become?
Who've you become?
Let that soak into your ear drums
Let it marinate
Arianna Anderson Dec 2011
I salute the depression
Welcome the disaster
Congratulate the distress
For becoming my master

I high five the sorrow
Who's a dear friend of mine
A familiar demon
That abandoned me blind

I kissed the affliction
That encouraged my addiction
I must send a thank you not
For it helped with my decision

I salute the melancholy
Welcome the *******
Congratulate the misery
For becoming my master
Arianna Anderson Mar 2012
Ignore the discoloration in the carpet
Your mind wonders
Your eyes zoom
But disregard the foreign blemishes
Pay no attention, for I did it

Don't let your tongue begin to ask
I will pretend like you never did
A mysterious thought sweeps your mind
But disregard your curiosities
Pay no attention, for I will excuse it

Oh, the smell of corpse?
Your imagination has you by the neck
Your senses must be writing a fairy tale
But disregard your pathetic fiction
Pay no attention, for I don't smell it

Neglect the sounds of booming screams
Assume it is something innocent
Your absurd paranoia is quite prevalent
But disregard your insanity
Pay no attention, for I'm sure it's nothing
Arianna Anderson May 2012
I guess it's better when I am alone
My misfortune being my muse
My emptiness being a well deserved candidate
For the subject of my blues

I guess that's what gets me out of my writers block
When my heart falls, tumbles, burns, and splits apart
It's demented inspiration blossoms
It's what hatred calls art

I guess it's better when I am alone
My mind gets going when my heart has gone missing
Though I wish it were a loved one
It's depression I will be kissing
Arianna Anderson May 2013
I could cry but tears don't bring change
Trapped in my surroundings
Chaos
Suffocation
Why did those words neighbor my thoughts?
Hello?
HELLO!
I guess words don't make people listen
Action
The people need action
I'm my own minds puppet
Numb
Exhausted but not Lackadaisical
Bruised from self-mutilation
WHY WON'T YOU SPEAK UP?
mute
Hello?
HELLO!
HELP!
Arianna Anderson Jul 2012
It's like being able to breathe underwater
Having the capability of exploring unknown peaks
A rush of danger weaves around my mind
But a foreign creature comforts my overwhelming feeling of meek

It's like being lost underneath the sand
Should I go up or discover what's below..
The options, discomfort, curiosity
And the thought of; Where should I go?

It's like everything I wanted overwhelming me at once
I inhale the fumes of pure gratitude
The feeling of no imperfections
Build my ego and improve my humbling attitude

It's like the space between us right before we kiss
The peace and love all stored in one little space
The millisecond right before we are connected
Right before you entice me and I become **** faced

It's like my love for you
How it's hard to explain
It's something you feel and not talk about
Something that's stitched into our membrane
Arianna Anderson Dec 2011
In the background again
I've let myself slip into the title "no one"
Forgotten but not abandoned purposely
I isolated myself for my own good
To keep me sane
But it's not working
I've driven myself mad
Arianna Anderson May 2012
The denial of my personality blooms
I have my own little world that is ran by shrooms
I only see what I saw
Child's play FREEZE but I thawed

The denial of my personality blooms
My real thoughts written in cocoons
Turned away from the blizzard
Snow cut down trees with plastic scissors

The denial of my personality blooms
Buried away with the voices in my king Tut tomb
Knocking at my door came the ghost of annoyance
With his partner, flaming with flamboyance

The denial of my personality blooms
I have my own little world that was taken over by shrooms
The unicorn of happiness lazily began to trot
Left with the taste of Oh My God
Arianna Anderson Oct 2012
This is all for you
Whether it be with a knife, gun, or cyanide
We love you and worship you my dear
Two more days until the mass suicide

I shall leave no suicide note
I shall make no will
No one really could give a **** whether I go or not
Two more days until the ****

Two more days until I give it all up
Two more days until we all sacrifice ourselves to you
You are our god, our everything
And two more days until we’re black and blue

This thought of dying doesn’t make me cringe
It draws happiness onto my black paper that’s labeled “life”
I’m not scared one bit
There’s one more day until I walk toward that light

Are you proud of us?
Are you proud of me?
Will you miss me when I’m gone?
Because there’s one more day until I end everything

I burnt all my old notes from friends
I burnt all the memories
I killed off all the negative thoughts
I killed off all the used-to-be’s

Today is the day
As we all gather around
Armed with guns, poisons, and much more
Nobody makes one single sound

This is not a day of darkness
We are sacrifices, and to die for our god is the way to go
I try to empty my thoughts
Before this gun blows

Dear god standing before me
As I see these bodies drop to the ground for you
This mass suicide is quite entertaining isn’t it?
I’m not stupid, you’re a murderer, I’m sorry I shot you

-Sincerely
Your Disciple
Arianna Anderson Jun 2012
I'm not good at anything
I can't stay committed
If I'm not amazing at it I don't see the point
I'm a quitter and I admit it

I'm not good at expressing myself
I'm too short to really do anything athletic
I'm not good in front of an audience
And my creativity is kind of pathetic

My poems are... whatever
And my social skills kind of ****
I'm really just a push over
And I can't help someone if I really don't give a ****

My attention span is inexcusable
And my memory is nonexistent
I'm too shy to confront my fears
And I'm to insecure to be persistent

I'm not good at anything
I'm not noticed at all
I was once looked up to and praised
But now a shattered porcelain doll

Thrown away and forgotten
Arianna Anderson May 2013
If I could, If I had the courage
I'd run away....

Far... where the forgotten kidnapped children are buried
Far... where oxygen has no name
And I'd walk there like a barefooted gypsy
The insanity of it all driving me sane

Far... where the undiscovered grows
Far... where danger begins
And I'd inhale it all like it was natural
I guess, danger and I will be friends
Arianna Anderson Oct 2015
There have been thoughts that have popped up in my mind every now and then like a dead beat dad on holidays.
There have been break downs that I hide in the fabric of my pillow case as it muffles my whimpers
There have been hidden cries for help that won't dare move past my quivering lips to keep on my mask of "I'm okay"

I'm not okay.
Arianna Anderson Mar 2012
Training wheels to keep your filled head
From tipping over; egoistical
You straighten your back to clearly see
What's left of those muscles you showed
To the world
The world you shunned for not being worthy
Of that personality spray painted in fools gold
Spray painted to match that God awful tan
You spent getting in the summer that you wasted of mine
The summer weaved with pushed back memories
Oh, don't remind me
Oh, how the spring has brought the gift of an eye opener
Clearly revealing those training wheels
To hold you up from falling into your puddle of insecurities
You keep in a cup
Behind the shoe box of our dusty memories
Arianna Anderson Jul 2014
As you walk the streets blind to the truth
Does money sculpt your perception
We see a struggle to fight through the day
You see laziness painted with your deception

Levels of hierarchy built by the bricks of immortality
Paper defines how long one lives
unable to afford a decent insurance plan
Taken for all we got but hated if we don't forgive

How long will it take until justice affects the top of the food chain
How long until an eviction notice will be on their doors
We all know the IRS wont ask them for overdue payments
But one will listen if its written with, "Sincerely, the Poor"
Entered this poem for a scholarship, all fingers crossed
Arianna Anderson Jan 2012
Distracted by my dreary contemplation
Putting suicide under the light of consideration
I'd find a way for my spirit to give you justification
Of why I needed to go

Each day it feels like death's seducing my
Soul, but would it be a sin to comply
Why try to resist and let my needs be denied
Maybe I just need to let go

Is our love great enough to still be as strong when left a memory
The depression in my heart has reached its full capacity
I tried, I swear, but I can't reach the state of being happy
So promise you will let go
Arianna Anderson Dec 2011
I never knew you
Je ne vous connais

I don't know you
Je ne vous connais pas

But you love me
Mais tu m'aimes

Does it break your heart that you're a stranger to me?
Est-il briser votre coeur que vous etes une etrangere pour moi?
Arianna Anderson Jan 2017
My mind takes it reserved spot on the tip of a turning top
Am I the one causing it to spin?
To stop and think puts pressure on my assumptions
But maybe I should instead look within

Whats in the bag? Whats in the bag?
An army of misread metaphors
A 4th dimensional space, is mine to taste
But only I can open up that door

I grew strong legs to carry my bagagge
To leave it behind wasn't even a thought
I tried to outrun my problems, cupid and God
But its love itself that has me caught

I took my reserved spot in the chair of an open mind
I didn't want to look in the mirror because I was scared of what I'd see
A flawful analogy of pure sensuality
And it turns out that I actually love me.
Arianna Anderson Dec 2012
You don't believe in love yet....

You look at me differently

You look at me like I've reached
unlocked
warmed
the part of you that hasn't reared its precious head up in a while

You look at me like you can't help yourself
You can't help being drawn to me
You can't help that your lips quiver when I speak
You can't help the goose bumps

You look at me like you've found the thing you've been missing
Years of searching and being disappointed
And you've found it
You've found me...

And I look at you like you've caressed my nerves
Whispered to my soul
Kissed my senses
Massaged my thoughts

And I look at you like a man
Like an angel
Like my future
Nothing like my father

And I look at you like you've contained my depression
Like you've not just painted on a smile
But actually given me a life supply
Like you're my soul mate.
Arianna Anderson Jun 2016
I've always been good at it
Such a promising talent
We must not speak of this lustful secret
Be chaste, be a lady, be silent

But when you slide within my walls
When you whisper your desires
When you slam into my being
All my morals begin to expire

My eyes darken with malice
My soul flickers with sin
My thoughts shutter with such kink
And I would do it all over again
Arianna Anderson Mar 2013
I guess I smile because of you

Holding my diaphragm
exhaling laughter
Inhaling happiness
And over again

I guess you're on my mind a lot

Stepping on the cracks of the street, Tyler
Roaming the halls of the internet, Tyler
Struggling to stay awake, Tyler
And over again

I guess you inspire me

Through your worst you keep pushing
Working toward your "I am"
Not letting the impossible cut off your trail
And over again

And I guess I'm in love with you

Allowing your thread to weave around mine
Not letting my tongue speak a doubt
Willing to wait for an eternity
And I'd do it all over again
Arianna Anderson Feb 2012
Oh Gabriel,
Your pathetic tendencies to make me feel at fault
My naive mind believes every bit of your accusations
What was I thinking when I said yes?
I was blind at every single occasion

Oh Gabriel,
My desperate heart latched onto your grasp
Another abusive relationship I have fell in
You're just like your father, you know nothing but hatred
I am miserable, no need for me to pretend

Oh Gabriel,
I know not what love is
and it's obvious that you are confused as well
You built me a nice cozy home I admired
In the pits of your burning hell

Oh Gabriel,
Why can't I let you go?
I know nothing about you but I'm so intrigued
The dark side really does have cookies
I guess I never really believed

Oh Gabriel,
I'm stuck in the dark side of the moon
Your lies is its capital
You write your ******* in pretty letters
Blinded, I fell in love with it all

Oh Gabriel,
Why do I love you?
Arianna Anderson Apr 2012
A fatal imbalance occurred
Speech slurred
We are only capable of using small words
And God is the only thing that's pure

A foul stench in the air
But not even Judas could find a care
A paradox bouncing off the snare
Deranged and confused but definitely not aware

Muslims morphed into Hindus
Buddah didn't know what he got himself into
ravaged by the dominated Jews
The star of david was everyone's tattoo

We didn't know what we believed
Atheists were the only one's that could see
They believed in themselves but not very clearly
Religion was the beast and faith was the beauty
Arianna Anderson Jan 2016
I can taste your chastity

Tipping on my tongue as I watch
Consumed by your virtue
Baffled by your grace
How?
How does one breathe with such innocence
And laugh with no worry

I heard you were sheltered

Its easy when you've been born in silence
Watch my eyes as I ponder
Egged on by your serenity
Why?
Why do you speak with white letters
And laugh with no worry
To my new friend David, your pleasant nature leaves me speechless
Arianna Anderson Sep 2012
Have you ever been in love?
Your heart beat not only quickens
It accelerates
It penetrates your ribs
Because of how hard it pounds against
Pounds within
Pounds deep inside your body
You feel complete
You feel full
No space left for any intruders
Peace
Fulfillment
Everlasting completion
Two becomes one in a single body
Two souls pounding against
Pounding within
Pounding deep inside your body
You feel whole
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