If you like me too,hold on to me, because I need somebody to fix me. I know I'm asking a lot but I need somebody to show that they will stay.
If you don't like me just tell me I'm already broken so what is a few more cracks.
I'm fragile but tough I can handle somebody I like leaving me again.
I'm used to it. Nobody ever stays.
Nobody ever cares so please just tell me the truth
I can handle the heart break. I'm used to it.

Dear person I hate,
You must have done something horrible if I hate you because there aren't many I hate.
I may be annoyed at you right now and hate you but I never hate someone for the rest of my life
I always forgive people. It is a flaw I have.
You only live once so why hold a grudge.
But you must work with me. If I turn away at first let me cool down
Time will settle things
I know that. And if I truly don't forgive you
That means you have ******* up because as much as I try to keep people in my life
If I see it won't work i will stop chasing.

So dear person I hate. Just give me time. I'll come around.

Sincerely,
            Arabella

I can't believe it will almost be three years.
I am not ready to say those words
because If I were to say goodbye I may never see you again
I wish I were there
I wish I knew what was going on
so maybe you'd be here still
and my life would be different
Everyday I walk the Hallways
Strong and resilient
My heart is Ironclad
Because of the Goodbye that was never said
to either of you
I never wanted to say Goodbye
And I never did
I never will hear your voices again
Or the smiles you gave me
I only have my memories left
Which I keep locked away in my heart

How I wish I were heard
How I wish I were realized
How I wish that you realized my pain
That I feel alone
I feel forgotten
That I'm breaking again
Nobody ever thinks of me
Nobody ever loves me
My life is just a haunted Memory
I'm only a shadow
Because no matter how Hard I wish
They will never come true

I wrote about you today
I wrote about how I wish you were here
I'm reading a book and a character reminds me of you
So much that it hurts to read
I miss you
I wrote about you today
I wrote about how I wish I could say goodbye
Then maybe I wouldn't have felt so guilty
I miss you so much
One of the people that read it said it was their personal favorite
It was a dream of mine
He said that it was his personal favorite
I miss you so much
I think about you everyday
I wrote about you guys today
I wish I could have gotten one more hug
One more kiss
One more day
Before you vanished

You say you care but you don't
You say you listen but you are not
You all go to her and tell me that I must feel bad for her
Because mine is not like hers
I can function and do things she can't
But the truth is  push myself because I know I won't be heard
My anxiety came back and all I am is ignored
When she and he passed away I was ignored
I got no help to cope with their deaths
You always assume I can handle it
WELL OPEN YOUR EYES!!! I CAN'T
You make me do everything she can't and it is breaking me inside
Ignored because I silently get destroyed inside instead of it being loud
I hide it all because no matter what you are too blind to see
That your other daughter needs help too
I can't keep living like this. One day I'll break
And there will be no chance in getting me back.