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 Jan 2015 AnneMahri
Koketso Faith
As I stare in the midst of darkness
My mind invite you in my thoughts
I shake my head in the hopes of getting you out
You forever present in my thoughts
But fail to show up on my doorstep
Or send a mere text

I hate how my mind always defend you
"Maybe he hasn't forgotten you", it says
"Maybe he lost your  contact details" it adds
"Or maybe he's  just to busy to contact me" I correct it
"Or maybe he never wanted me" I add

Everytime my phone beeps I used to wish it was you.
Maybe you finally remembered that I exist
Thanks to your absence,
My heart is as cold as ice, and
Hard as a rock

Now when my phone beeps, I hope it's one of your BELOVED family members
With a message that you got hit by a bus.
A dead father is better than an absent father.
 Jan 2015 AnneMahri
Anonymous
Anxiety:
It's when your hands keep shaking
and "everyone hates me,"
I know it's not my fault,
but do the ones I talk to do?

Anxiety:
It's the ex-boyfriends who never understood
why you apologized so much
for things you had no business apologizing for,
and them not knowing that telling you to stop
and showing their annoyance
would only make it all worse.

Anxiety:
It's when the tiniest thing
can set you off
and make you believe that the people you love
couldn't care less about you,
even though there's piles and piles of memories
that can knock that thought
out of the deathly waters of your mind.

Anxiety*:
It's when
absolutely,
positively,
nothing
feels right anymore.



(w.n.)
I had a mini anxiety attack earlier and I just had another one and they **** so I wrote this.
 Jan 2015 AnneMahri
James Jarrett
It clamps my heart  hard in it's hand
Trying to stifle
The pulsing beat
Stop my breath
My words
My truth
But I can't
I have to speak
I can't stop the river
That flows
It is truth
And truth be told
No matter what the cost
It's nice to see a cell phone capture device appear on your power pole when you are an anti police state blogger
 Jan 2015 AnneMahri
Lydia Johnson
There's a knock on the door
I said don't come in
Anxiety lives beneath my skin

It sits on the couch
which is my heart
tearing my whole world apart

It never cares to wipe its feet
trailing my chest
with bright red streaks

Get out of my house
this isn't fun
oh my God my arm is numb

Pick up your **** I want you out
I can't even scream
I can't even shout

Close the door
behind you tight
I hate this ******* fight or flight

What did you steal what did you rob
I'm so confused
I'm in such a fog

It's all coming back now
I see it clear
Just exactly what I fear

           ...You've left the door cracked...
I'm new to anxiety. Started about seven months ago. I'm sharing my thoughts and feelings so far. I'm 24
 Jan 2015 AnneMahri
Aly the Pear
I am the problem
I can see the annoyance
In their tired eyes

"I am so sorry"
"For what?" they spit like acid
"Existing, perhaps"

They are sick of it
My need for reassurance
My anxiety
A set of haikus relaying my experience with anxiety

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