Hearts are
Wild creatures,
That's why our ribs
Are  cages

I have no recollection of what attracted me to you
Nor do I remember knowing it then.
There stood no physical attraction--
My stomach did not flutter in your presence
Nor did I long for your skin.
But only heaven knows
What I would have given
To remain there forever with you
Listening to your voice
Speaking of what used to be.
How I longed to fall asleep
On that Arizona ground
To the deep cadence of your voice.
But alas the day closed,
And the car pulled away.
With every second
I saw you shrink further away,
The car forcing us worlds apart
As you remained in yours
And I returned to mine.

I'm 18 years old. All these 18 years, I've been alone, living in nearly complete silence. I always enjoyed being lonely and silent.
But since my near-death, this has changed. Now I hate being lonely, it eats away at me, it breaks me down. I used to live by silence, now the silence is slowly killing. The silence screams at me, telling me things I don't like. "You're nothing.", "You're no good to anyone.", "People don't want you around.". The silence burnt these words into my mind, I get reminded of them every day. I try so hard to just have at least 1 friend in my life, but now, I'm convinced even that is too much to ask...

I melt when our eyes meet.
When you smile angels sing.
When you laugh the world falls silent around you.
I'm transfixed on you.
Do you even know my name?