What's the point if i will die?
I cant make this time fly.
I play Russian Roulette before bed,
Maybe tonights the night ill be dead.

I will transform this tiny room,
Into a beautiful tomb,
In my locker you will find,
The fake wall and what's behind.

Pictures depicting the real me,
So everyone can finally see,
What's its like living my life,
Before you twisted the knife,

I learned something from school,
Anf I dont need a math tool,
Six out of six equals one.
Bullets in brains equal none.

Nothing means no more pain,
Like pollen washed away by rain.
There might be more,
Ill know when i hit the floor.

That's the last thing I said,
Now I only taste lead.
I only needed one blunder,
To end up six feet under.

Six feet below here i am.
Turns out heaven was a sham.
I now taste lead for an eternity,
Because i let pain define me.

Here lies a boy, physically no different from you,
The quiet one everyone thought they knew,
He would smoke so often he couldn't stop coughing,
Even after everyone's two cents, he was putting nails in his own coffin.
He couldn't shake the thought he was so different, he saw the world no matter the difference.
He saw the world's pain through other people's eyes, as if he was ontop of the world on a skyrise.
He wanted to be your hero no matter the price, to save you and all from their own demise.
He tried to save all within his control, but feeling so different it just made him a fool.
When the time comes for the pardon of his passing,
Do not shed tears for he is in heaven laughing,
Finally joyful he will cry out!
Mother I've missed you! with a great shout!

Through the years he was your number one fan
He was always just your boy classified with the number of a man.
When that dreadful day came he ceased to grow,
By thoughts aged as if He was on death row.
Time will pass without stopping,
Nevertheless he will never stop hopeing.

Hopeing for one day the ones he loved would turn,
From the way of the world, oh! his heart would
burn!
To one day see the ones he held most dear,
For tommorow they will live without fear
For one day they will feel no different from you,
Their life forever changed from a boy they hardly knew.

You know I'd never break your heart;
I love you too much.
Sometimes I can be difficult.
Sometimes I will make you feel
Like you need to be some kind of superhero.
But in reality, I appreciate you
For who you are, and that alone.

We've been circling each other for months
two kindred spirits caught in a death stance
I see your vulnerabilities lined up like dominoes
but don't worry I'm here to slay your foes.
A worm is buried in your system
so deep in your head it affects your wisdom.
I will stand by your side always to protect you
I will never leave, hurt or reject you
I may not be the strongest, fastest or smartest
but for you I will work the longest and hardest
until all our demons are dead and gone
as we stand here all alone
on a desert plain, no sun, moon or rain
just two kindred spirits.

I want to die.
To slice my wrists until I bleed out
I want you to have to suffer,
Seeing me there
I want to die.
To strangle myself, lack of oxygen
I want you to be sad,
Missing me
I want to die.
To not wake up
I want you to be remorseful,
Hating yourself
I want to die.
But then I remember,
I'm already dead,
you will never know.

"It's not an operation unless its going to be optional" said the elderly *** chap. Not thinking to rational today,
(thoughts in a head) "-for what is a compliment if its given in haste."
(responsive only to ones self)
"I'm not gonna be there always, only some of time and most of the time is gonna be now." (invoking nothing but in a thought)
So it was in-coherency to modern day currency. Perfect in flaw, dried in brown rice while being sentenced to a decorative cork topped glass jar.

I shall never judge others for looks nor wealth.
We should teach others to not judge other in the wrong way.
We should...
...dance like no one is watching...
...sing like you're preaching to the heavens...
...treat one another as you treat thy self...
...see beyond their skin and clothes...
...only judge what's on the inside, not out.

EACH TO THE OTHER ARE

LADY frown not
at this absence

of the sun

that hath so far
shone down

on everything
we've  done.

For we are all
the sun we need.

See! I shine on you!
You...you shine on me!

Nay...weep not this
mere absence

of a sun

for we
a star

each to
the other are

& all of summer
& all its glorious loving

ripens succulently
like a glistening berry

in who
we each to the other

...are.

The merest kiss
...a star!

*

Our first love was made glorious by this sun of Stratford  and now our first tentative meeting after that threatens not to be a sunny day!

Alas! But what care I!

I doth love thee
whatever the weather

if thou but
shine on me

shine

on

me.