may the dark
break me apart
so that the light
will build me back up
from the sunlit soil
of the earth
heart throbbing like new

let the light come in
let the light in
to where there is no light
let it sit and sizzle and part the darkness
until the only thing left standing
is the light reflected in you

and here i loved
the only thing
that could ever be loved
which was everything
or nothing at all

it almost seems
like a crime
how different we can be
from one day to the next
there’s almost this
ludicrous sense of guilt
for having changed
for having led everyone
to believe that
you are one thing
one day
and something else entirely
the next

but i have decided
that is the only way
to grow, so please
take everything i say
with a grain of salt
and don’t hold it against me
if one day i grow
to love you
when i hated you so
just the day before

she is a
true pretender—
the kind that
never returns
to the scene
of the crime
where reality
was murdered

i know what
the lost girls knew
that the lost boys
wouldn’t tell them
because boys don’t
want their girls
to be found
but the girls aren’t
listening to the boys
anymore

nobody said
you have to be happy
and nobody told you
to take off your dark
in favor of
somebody else’s light