You're my best-kept secret,
my one-time fling.
The only source of this heartbreak,
yet - still -
everything.

Your absence is suffocating,
the last droplets of your name escape my lungs.
Don't worry, darling;

*I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Dear Lord,
Can you hear me?
I've been praying so long that someone would be,
I've been praying so long that someone will see,
the truth behind these eyes
and the
sadness in this smile.
I'm searching for my other half,
my one and only,
my soulmate.
Where is she, God, can you help me?
I've placed so much in the hands of fate.

See there's a hole in my heart
that never fully healed.
My whole life, I've been waiting
for something that's real.
I need someone to show me
what I haven't felt in years;
Please, give me someone
who will break down these walls
& help me let go of these fears.

And Dear God,
Can you see me?
I'm over here
on bended knee,
I'm not too proud to beg,
but see;

I miss the butterflies,
I miss the forehead kisses.
I miss the feel of her against me,
and the 11:11 wishes.
I could have the whole world, but
it's the little things I'm always missing.

Dear God...

Take your place
beside her
as I lie in this bed alone.
These sheets don't do you justice,
I trace into this skin with my own;
remembering the ghost of your fingertips, so lightly, touching me;
just barely, but enough
for me to realize
that you
are what I need.
I have memorized the lines in your face,
the crinkle when you smile;
the light in your eyes when I make you laugh..
oh, love, it has been quite a while.
A few days have turned into months,
my heart's never been free.
You've kept it all this while,
did you know?

I wonder if you're missing me.

the moment you left
I realized exactly
what it was
that I needed
to say.

Thoughts of you keep me awake,
I just can't seem to sleep.
One thought of you is all it takes
to stay awake in this daydream.

Eyes wide open when they should be closed,
I'm looking for you now.
In my sleepless reality, I cannot doze;
you left without a sound.

I miss my arms tucked neatly around
the small of your back and your waist.
I remember that look in your eye that I found,
and caught myself wishing to taste
the feel of your mouth, the touch of your lips, just barely grazing mine.
Then maybe, just slightly, pushing harder against yours,
as our hands, they'd intertwine;
up against the wall, roughly, I'd pull you closer into me.
You'd run your fingers through my hair, while my hands, they travel free. And land themselves on each side of your face, and as you're looking back at me..
Let me lift your chin up towards my lips, and show you a perfect fit.
I will hold you when you're most lovable,
and when you're breaking down bit by bit.
Don't let the world swallow you whole;
I'm right here, can't you see?
I've never left - I'll always be here.
Come, and fall down into me.

In my arms, you belong
but you are so far away.
Tell me: what would you do
if all I asked of you
was to stay.