Daphne Cornelia Gomez

Daphne Cornelia Gomez May 2016

Too much

Looking into your eyes
I ask a single question
"Did you expect this?"
Of course
You shake your head
Confirming my worst fears
"It's just too much for me"
Too much for you
My abuse
My heartbreak
My abandonment
My scars
Are too much
For you
But like always
I nod
"It's okay, its too much for me too"
But just remember
When they find my body
In a bathtub filled with blood
You told me
It was too much
For you

#love #suicide #depression #abuse #abandonment

Daphne Cornelia Gomez Feb 2018

Chaos

I have lived in a world filled with peace and calm but the moment you walked through the door it was pure, beautiful, chaos.

Daphne Cornelia Gomez May 2016

Panic attack

Heart racing
Head pounding
Lungs seizing
Muscles shaking
Music blaring
Hands grasping
Eyes crying
Fear grabbing
Limbs numb
Keep breathing
in,out,in,out
Hyperventilating
Mind gone
Then it's over
Standing up
Shaking knees
Stomach in knots
Face red
Breath catching
Mind buzzing
Embarrassment flooding
Deep breathes.

#depressing #panic #attack

Daphne Cornelia Gomez May 2016

Tired

Im tired of this
Tired of feeling like **** all the time
Tired of being alone
Tired of feeling hated
Tired of faking smiles
Tired of talking about myself
Tired of trying
Tired of wishing i were dying
Tired of living like this
I'm simply tired of being alive

#sad #dying #depression #tired

Daphne Cornelia Gomez May 2016

Infinity

One love
One God
One life
One world
These mortal born limitations are the only thing that stands between us and infinity
An infinite amount of possibility limited only by our mind
We are told there is only one way but i promise there are always more
We are infinite in a finite amount of time
Endless directions punctuated by the limitations of the human mind
We will never reach infinity because we still cannot grasp eternity

Rough draft, will probably fix later

#human #eternity #infinity #limits

Daphne Cornelia Gomez May 2016

Left behind

You've moved onto her
The exact opposite of me
Long hair
Flat stomach
Brown skin
5'3
Smooth laugh
Lots of friends
You gave her the things you once gave me
Your old blue sweatshirt
Long stares from across the room
Your heart full of love
Sweet smiles and sly jokes
You have let go of us
And I'm left here holding onto you

Today was a ****** day.

#love #heartbreak #sad #relationship

Daphne Cornelia Gomez May 2016

Looking from the outside in

You look at me from the outside
Like a fish in a clear glass bowl
You only see me swimming peacefully
As I stare back at you fearfully
All you see are the bubbles escaping my mouth
But cannot hear the screams that come out
Tap, tap, tap you hit the glass
I feel the vibrating
And think I am dying
Unable to swim away from your terror
You wave at me, unaware of your error
Smiling a wide toothed grin
You look at me from the outside in