frog
necklace
for
you

we taught ourselves to lie,
and always hide our pain,
the elders keep us locked up,
depression on our chains,
we keep our sadness bottled up,
and cry when we're alone,
so how are we the bad ones,
when we don't know where to go?

You left me. How could you?
I relied on you the most.

You kept me grounded. Didn’t you know that?
I was strong because of you.

You were my confidant. Why aren’t you here?
I knew my secrets were safe with you.

We shared the same burdens.
But now that you are gone, I carry all of them.

I know I should not be mad.
It wasn’t your fault, but why couldn’t you live?

I miss you.

on
10/22/2020
I lost myself
I shattered to pieces
no
maybe I was already overwhelmed
I scream in agony
yet silently
so I don't wake my parents up
dreaming
they could hear me
wishing they would say
my dear, it is alright
you will be fine
yet now
at around the end of the year
I'm still in pieces
now I write
my suffering and pain
hoping to go from
a lost woman
to a complete poet

A winter walk
In winter time,
Your fingers weave
And wind with mine,
A den of thieves,
As our hearts float,
In the pocket
Of my duffle
Coat.

he said he'd walk through
hell for me
but the moment he saw fire
he ran away

My dear,
If I were to write you a song,
I'd surely fill my lungs

My dear,
If I were to write you a letter,
I'd surely kiss the sun
Burst into a thousand flames

My dear,
If I were to write your final words,
My pen would bleed
Of all you've been
And never seen

My dear,
If you learned I wrote your story,
Would you understand
Forgive me the tears
The loss within,
If you knew each line was a beautiful creation of mine?

My dear,
You are always mine
From infants cry
To burial time
Don't despair today
This line will become yesterday
You haven't seen my melodies or poetry
We'll kiss the sun another day.