i had looked forward
to slow dancing with you
all night

and when the time came

you looked at me
after your friends
encouraged you

and decided that
i didnt want to
for some reason

you constantly threaten to beat me and i so wish you do and put me out of my misery

normal parents would care if their child doesn’t feel well
normal parents would let their child have fun
normal parents would love their kids
normal parents wouldn’t curse and scream and call their kid’s names
normal parents wouldn’t have to talk to social services multiple times and blame everything on their kid being too dramatic
normal parents wouldn’t yell at their kid for being abused by other people and blame them
normal parents wouldn’t stop their kid from growing and finding out who they are
normal parents would care
normal people would care

the way my world was shook quiet
by you
when you screamed
my name
from across the room.

all of a sudden
it all came back to me.

i always knew you thought it .

why don’t you love me?
why don’t you care for me?
why do you dismiss me like i am nothing?

what did i do?


mommy please

i need you