When depression strikes,
A door for poetry opens.

The door that lets out the misery
The pain that keep hurting me
In turn invites public sympathy
By posting some of these poetry

Poetry that grew, from the feelings I have taken out.
Poetry that nourished, from the tears that I have shed
Poetry that would die down as times passes by.

And what I hope for,
Is when the leaves of my peotry starts to fall to the ground
My heart would be healed from the pain that once surround.

Let me **** myself in poetry
The suicide thoughts that keeps haunting me
The misery that keeps drowning me
I will let it all out in this piece of poetry

I am starting to hate myself
I know I have the ability, for what it's worth
But I keep stumbling and falling
All by myself

I feel sorry to my parents
For they have provided me everything they could give
I feel sorry to God
For I know he had blessed me with so much more than I am worth

I know killing isn't the solution
But

I hate myself That I want to hurt it
Inflict pain and **** it.

But I know a lot of people still loves me
Caring and is waiting for me

So to let out my anger
Let me **** myself in this poetry
Yes, with this poem I have died.

I have killed myself in poetry,

Now I shall go back stronger, to face my reality.

I feel so *****, I feel so tired
At times too, I feel so empty and uninspired.

This time too. I feel so *****, coz i am
I cannot wash away that dirt that covers me
Thus let me just rest, and say goodbye.

Dati akala ko masakit ang umasa,
pero napagtanto ko na mas masaya ang umasa
Kasi atleast sa utak mo sinasabi mo na pwede pa
Sa bawat sandali na kapiling mo xa, natutuwa kana
Kahit konting kasweetan, bininigyan na ng halaga
Kaya masasabi kong ang umasa, ay masaya pala talaga

pero kailan ba nagiging masakit ang umasa?
kailan ba nagiging mapait ang nadarama?

Ito ay kung nagsimula kana sa pagdududa
Na sa totoo ay ang pwede, ay di pala
Ito ay kung tumigil kana sa pag-asa
at nasabi **** tama na
kasi ayaw mo na
at susuko kana

Saka mo palang madarama ang sakit
at panghihinayang sa oras na ginugol mo
at inaksaya mo sa pag-aasa
na hindi rin pala nagbunga.

Ang iba galit sa mga paasa,
pero minsan din ay naaiingit ako sa kanila,
kasi masasabi ko meron din namang panahon na naging masaya sila
sa pag-asa na pwede pa,
kesa sa nagsisimula palang
pero ayun, binara na.

Kahit minsan man lang
subukan mo sana akong lokohin
at sana ako rin ay iyong paasahin

Alam ko kung ano ang sabi ng iba
Na ayaw nila sa mga paasa
Pero wala akong **** sa opinyon nila
Kasi mas pipiliin ko ang umasa
Kesa sa bitiwan at kalimutan ka

Kaya kahit minsan, subukan mo man lang sana akong lokohin
Sabihin mo Na ikaw ay pwede ring maging sakin
Paglaroan mo ako at paasahin
Wala akong ****, ano man ang kanilang sabihin
meron akong aaminin
sa totoo lang, umaasa kasi ako
na baka ang lokohan di kalaunan ay totohanin.

Kaya kahit minsan man lang
subukan mo man lang sana akong lokohin at paasahin
Pag-ibig ko sayo mag mo naman sa laging barahin
pag-asang maipakita ang pagmamahal ko sayo
sana, wag mo namang ipagkait sa akin.