And now I'm thinking
with a wrinkle
in my response
deflected by chemistry
and calculation
and

It broke down
that bubble upton
tannic in my cheeks
setting teeth to grit
in the skin spasm

you can lead an ion
to a source
of left turns about
a vague unsatisfying
uncertain
moment

you wanted to come here
and i
given up
on arrivals
said no to leaving
and left

Trailing across
a little window
small words wrapped
in love
falling into the drop boxes
half worlds apart.
<3

My memories flash in shades of amber
golden hour light
an infinite dusk
in moments of silence
but just as quickly
fade to the present
where I'm sick to my stomach
because I think I'm broken.
Something always feels so wrong
and I'm scared
of how this is going to end,
inevitably.
I try to not get too attached,
but a hundred miles away,
you can't see
the mess I am without you.

I know you're telling me the truth
when you say it's okay,
but I hope you still stay
when it's my fourth day in a row
without showering
and my third day stuck in bed
with two bloodshot eyes
and one brain cell left,
out of focus and underwhelming.
Another weekend ends
and you have to go home again.
Each time you leave, I pray
that you're not
leaving for good.

Remember that promise long ago?

After that, you seemed to glow.

Day and night I was by you.

At you side, the time flew.


The promise is always in my mind.

Those words that I long to find.

That night, we swore to stay,

by each others sides till' the last day.


So I'll do that. Of course I will.

Those holes in your heart I'll try to fill.

I'll stay by you, I promise.

Together, we can live in bliss.