How do I put this?
I know left,
I know right.
I don't know the in between.

I can do black or white ,
I don't know what to do with grey.
Just as easily as I write this,
So it's true in my life.

We in the grey area right now,
I wish we weren't,
I can barely be in control,
I never know what to do,
What to say, or
How to flourish
or even turn it around.

I don't know,
How to make it work
In the grey area.
I don't have the skills,
To make you choose left or right.
How do I make you see,
Let you choose,
Decide ,
Pick Us.
Pick a side.
Pick anything,
I just don't know what to do with grey.

I feel like we're growing apart
Like I don't talk to you near as much
As I used to.
Now, I find myself retrieving sustenance.
In silence.
I'm happier alone than I am with people.
I'm awkward in groups.
I'm quieter than I was.
And there's no one for me to open up to.
But if there is...
Please come forward....
Because I need you.

A dimly lit night
Locked up inside
With no one in sight
In love with someone
Who's just out of sight
Nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
I must endure
What I feel inside
No hugs
No comfort
Only depression
And hurt
No one to kiss
No one to hold
No one to love
Until I grow old
Why can't I die
Bottle it up
Time up and get high