I miss having you
In my stream of consciousness
Because now all I do
Is try to push you
To the back of my mind

You don't belong there

it's almost your birthday
you would of been 20
and we would be laughing
thinking back on how
our problems were so small
compared to things now
but we'd be okay
cuz we'd help each other

it's almost your birthday
would you be proud of me?
i've done so many things
that i know you'd love
a lot of the time
i wish you were around
because i need the extra push
and you always gave me one

it's almost your birthday
and it's hard not to cry
thinking about you
always makes me a mess
you would of done great things
but i guess it's done now
i promise i'll do good
for both of our sakes

it's almost your birthday
and i miss you tori
i miss you a lot

you are my peace of mind
seeing you gives me clairity
it provides sunshine
your smile being the rays of light
speaking with you
is almost like hearing a chorus
a chorus of angels
singing songs just for me
i find it easy to say
that i love you
it's more than sweet talk and pet names
it's honesty that i wish i could show more
you make me
wanna be a better person
being with you reminds me
that there is beauty in the world
when my phone goes off
and i see your name
it clears my mind
and reminds me everything is ok
everything is gonna be ok

smother me
until i can feel
nothing at all
that's all i ask

the scars
that had once faded
are opened again

deep wounds searching
for nothing
except peace of mind