I wish i can remove those feelings
I don’t want them not anymore
I don’t want to feel or even want you to feel my feelings
I’m better with my own
Alone in my little world
All alone

A friendship where you try to impress,
fit in,
make them love you or like you more —
this is not a friendship.
It’s just a sign for you to leave.
To be yourself,
in a different place,
with different people,
different friends.

I'm drowning
I'm drowning again
My head
my thoughts are killing me
Every day
Every second.
Every breath
Every beat
I'm drowning again
Can I be saved?
Or I can't?
Can I be in peace
for a day,
for a second,
for a breath,
for a beat?
Be in peace again…
or I can't?
Can I?

I didn’t mind
for you to love me.
I didn’t mind
giving you my heart.

But did you ask?
Did you ask for my love?
Did you ask for my heart?

You didn’t.

So why am I sad?
Why am I lonely?
Why am I the way I am —
without you?

I wish you could just read my eyes and translate my feelings by simply looking at them…

I wish you could see, or feel, or even care…

Do you even care?

I'm lucky
for having you,
for having someone like you,
just you.
yapping all day long,
arguing about what is best for me,
sleeping in the same bed after a horror movie.
I know that you're sometimes a pain for me,
but I love it, even if it makes my life misery—
even if it's from you.
Each day I fall for you more and more.
I adore you.
You are my best friend.
You are my love.
You are you.
You, my love.
You, my best friend.
I love you—
for being you.

in my little dream
in my little head
i think of you all day all  long
a thought, a glance, a song
i think of you all day all  long
just a dream
between me and you
just an eye contact
between me and you
just a dream
just nothing
between us
nothing

In the end 
It will go, it will pass
Time will heal you slowly day by day until you can let go
Trust me
It will

life goes by
your life goes by
we will move on
you moved on
we will forget each other
you forgot about me
gonna lose each other
you left me
we are stranger now
but you're not stranger in my thoughts
in my heart
in my soul
you will still be here
in my memories
in my photo gallery
in my contacts
in my notes
in my drafts
i still call your name
call it unconsciously
i still read our massages
read it unconsciously
i miss you
but i will heal
one day
some day
i will

I feel lost

My feelings are just like the ocean
moving slowly or rushing fast

I can’t make them settle or slow down

How can I do that?

I want my feelings to be like the tide at the beach… dry and empty

Just between me and my thoughts…I really liked you I really do..or maybe
Maybe the idea
The idea of having someone to love or maybe just maybe to make sure i can be loved
Loveable by someone….person who love me for who i am for my presence for being me just me
Someone can love me in my silent days, boring days and anger days…
Can i be loved?
Can i be loved for who i am?
I think i can ..
By someone
A special person
A lovely person
Like… ME!!!
I just love me

I loved you in mystery
I hoped I would get my victory
I thought that we had history
You made me feel agony
You were in my memory
And that put me in my misery

you know me
know me too well
know me better than anyone
you understand me more than everyone
i talk to you about everything
i vent to you about anything
you know what i do
what i should do
you know what is on my mind
what i'm thinking about
you know my heart
what will hurt my soul
who listens to me even when i hate myself
who stays when i didn’t even want to talk
who knows me without even explaining myself
who hugs me when the world feels cold
who cleans my eyes when it's stars raining again
who puts up with my storms and dryness
who cares about my life more than i do
you know my past, my present, and i hope my future as well
our memory
our heart
our mind
are connected
we belong like one person
i know you
you know me
i love you, my human diary

Feeling can come and go right?

So why am i in the same place having the same feelings?

How can i move on?

I fell for nothing and i know that

But how can i move on from “nothing” ?

Listening to your feelings,
your sad thoughts.
Listening to your voice,
to hear the crack in it.
Looking at your eyes,
to see those wilted gazes.
You always adored flying,
but now you prefer the cage.
You used to love talking,
but now you’re silent.
You used to fill me,
but now you’re empty.
You looked like a sunny day,
and now you’re the rainy one.

just stay here and console me
just stay and collect my words together to hear their melody
just stay here and hold my pieces together
to figure me
just stay here and look at me
to see the lifeless painting I have become
to understand my pain
just stay here
silent with me
to hear my soul shatter
slowly
just stay here
with me
stay

I am in a room

A tiny room

No doors

No windows

Not even a light

But there is only a small hatch in the floor

A tiny one

When I opened it

There is no ramp to walk over it

There is no ladder to go down

I can only fall in this hole

But there is no other way out of this

This madness

Either I fall into the darkness, a place to drown more,

Or into a hope, a place to escape

Will I survive this?

This madness

There is only one way to find out

why is it okay when it's you
why is it okay
always nagging
always mean
always judging
but when i'm even about to talk
i'm the problem
is it because i make it easy?
is it because i always let it slide?
always "you didn't mean it"
always covering for your mistakes
always "i'm imagining"
always trying to make myself the problem so you can continue with your thoughts
those stupid thoughts
and even then
i hoped that you would hate me
or be bored of me
because i know
and i've always known
that i can't hate you
i can't block you
i can't leave you
please hate me
please leave me
and you did
left

i was lying in my bed
thinking of you
waiting for you
dreaming of you
loving you
by myself
asking you
will you love me
will you need me
will you care for me
will you?

Wishing is all I can ask for

But having is something I can’t have

You're Here
You're here with me
Still there
Even when we are in silence
Even when we are bored
Even when we are sad
Even when we are mad at each other
Even when we fight
Even when we hate each other
You're still here
And I will
Trust me, I will
I will be with you
Forever
And ever
I love you
And I always will
I will love you unconditionally