My couch is a wasteland,
Pulls me down, I cannot stand.
It scares me that I’m drawn to gore,
I see destruction, I want more.
I don’t know if its anger,
Or if it’s something stranger.
I want to shatter glass,
I need to make this feeling pass.
I want to throw things and scream,
I want to get out of this dream.
Running isn’t satisfying,
I feel like I need to break something.

I wonder if you think of me
As I do of you,
I wonder if you miss me
I'm such a fool,
I wonder if you'd ever tell me
What I've put you through,

Soon I will be just a memory
Of someone you once knew,
As I fade away know that,
Once upon a time
I loved you ...
Did you ever love me too?

I miss everything about you, is that so bad?
After everything you’ve done, why do I want you back?
I search my mind everyday for answers that never come.
I miss you.
Your smell, your touch.
I miss it all, but somehow you still don’t seem to care.
Is this real or just a feeling?
I desperately wish you’d tell me, why you don’t love me anymore.
I want to come back to you, I know I shouldn’t.
But I’m in love with you, that will never change.
Please let me forget, please let me move on.
Everything I feel for you is heightened in a sense.
Please don’t leave me, please don’t go.
But I want you to, I want you to run far far away, until I can’t feel you anymore.

Late night texts
Sleepy eyes
Small smiles
Butterflies

Stolen moments
Held inside
Beating heart
Stupefied

~

Left alone
Tear filled eyes
Chapped lips
Scarred thighs

Empty promises
Cast aside
Broken heart
Terrified

~j.l.