it wasnt my choice
i didnt want it
i was drunk
i was 15 he was 18
im in high school
i puke... wet pants in the hospital bed
i cry
i cant sleep
i write
i draw anything to destract my mind
i want it to leave myhead
i want the faded demon to leave
no cuts but i want to
no soul but i need it
rapped and called a liar
im tired of it all
i want to be done and nobody will let me

Silence everywhere
nobody speaks, nobody breathes
everyone listening, nobody caring
the wounds the silence creates
cut deep, but still no scream
tired so mad, so hurt, so sad,
more pain, less smiles
the silence takes over
silence its everywhere and nowhere

i think bout it some times
the urge is there
the blood red liqud
it dires from blue to red to dark red brown.
people in this world
sick and twisted
no clue what other go threw
beatings, yelling, drugs, cuts, more drugs , more fake smiles
the purge, the beast, nobody knows
there was no beauty in the beast.
im tired of anger, im tired of pain, tired of the besat just exsploding out

im tired of pain, im tired of sorrow,
everyone says its up to you...they all lied,
its not my option,
its everyone esles but mine
i cry
i want to overdose
i dont, im not giveing up
i fight to get my self out but i dig in deeper
im trapped by an age i cant escape form
trapped but a familly hold
trapped but the option of others
i give them the wheel but,
im takeing my heart and running with the wind
i want to leave
get out
never look back
that is my option when
im no logner trapped by an age
and scorched by the options of others rage