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Katrina Zechman Aug 2015
in heaven above you are
never got to hold you
never got to see you
you never heard my voice or seen me
but yet i know your above
your my love and my life
even if you dont know me
i know you know ill see you again
in the heavens above
i dream i see i try to know how it would have been
but nothing could comepare to the heavens above
you watch me, you smile down , you send your love, all from above
i love you my angel
R.I.P
Katrina Zechman Jul 2023
In shadows cast by cruel disdain,
A bully's wrath does cause great pain.
With sharpened words, they seek to harm,
Leaving scars that leave hearts alarm.

They prey upon the vulnerable,
Their actions callous, so terrible.
Intimidation their chosen game,
But their power is truly so lame.

For strength lies not in force or might,
But in the kindness shining bright.
A bully's heart is filled with fear,
A mirror reflecting what's not clear.

Let's stand together, hand in hand,
Against the darkness they command.
With love and empathy, let us rise,
And silence their venomous cries.

In unity, we'll break their hold,
Replacing fear with stories bold.
For every soul deserves respect,
In a world where love we must protect.
Katrina Zechman Jul 2015
Wings of bright white on Angels back
Halos shining so bright above their head
As they flap their wings make sounds that crack
Above the sleeping beings that are in bed
The Angels heart beats finds souls that lack
To make life with happiness at ease spread
Lacking hearts that beat with sin
The forces that gather is dark and demonic
Angels crushes sin when it spreads within
No beings should lusts another romantic
That leads doubts and shackles in
Angels stop such thing before it become climatic
Katrina Zechman Dec 2017
I Do not look to you with questioning eyes
For I do not possess the answers they seek
I cannot taste the bitter sweetness of your tongue,
or smell the withered flowers along your path
My heart beats with less rhythm than your blues
I am unable to stumble through your dark mind,
for you are poet undiscovered
Your answers are hidden deep within a mind and a pen
For you hide behind a painted closed window
Pushing too little but arriving late
Not aware of your own greatness
Solitarily, and feeling sorry for yourself
When instead, the world celebrates sad clowns
but you do not let laughter mix with your grey sky tears
I myself, see images of your words poured out on limitless pages, sculpted your words have substance Becoming living
and breathing beings I wish you to reveal to us your cherished words show them to a forgiving and un-forgiven world
Risk the grasping hands of rejection
True courage will reveal your greatest work
Without risk you cannot will not bleed
Instead, days will become years Yesterday will slide into tomorrow
All the while the world would be less A shadow of what it could have been in a place of unawareness
Oblivious to its own lacking.
All because of a missing Unexpressed Silent Unexplored voice!
Or maybe Just Maybe One Letter A tiny little letter will grow into a word Several strung together
Then we will all be a witnesses to the magic of a singular voice of a wide eyed dreamer
Then you will feel that collective sigh as other broken dreamers applaud you for on that day
if only you possess the courage all will know
That you truly are and always have been a Poet!
Katrina Zechman Feb 2018
you know that guy you tell him you love him.
you know that feeling you get when you say it. that golden bliss. them moments when you are laying with him and you cant help but to smile because your so happy laying in his arms.
the flash of colors you see when he touches your skin.
smile he gives you when he i being adorable
he is some kinda merical even if he dont know it
when you fall for him unexspectedly.
when you finally realize he is the one
that is the day you will be BLISSFULLY happy
Katrina Zechman Dec 2014
"I've fallen in love with you."
With these words his eyes locked on mine;
He was nervous; but excited
Uneasy; but assured
Melancholic; but thrilled
Anxious; but relieved.
I can still hear the drumming of his heart
when I took his hand and I said,
"I've fallen in love with you too"
Katrina Zechman Nov 2015
He and she
its all talk
one thing after another
happy then sad
never know whats going to happen next
life? People change people is a key
it unlakc many paths
trust is a brakeable path you brake it
its hard to get accross it again
he says
she says
i say the truth
the claims they say
are roumors
they say lies and i say truth
peace and honor
never to e heard becasue of the claims of others
Katrina Zechman Dec 2016
I need you,
To be there for me

Where have you been?
Why must you avoid it?
Do you not love me?
What did I do so wrong
To make you turn away?

You didn't walk,
You ran away,
Far, far away

You made me think,
You didn't love me

You were gone,
My whole life,
And now you're back

Yet you want nothing,
To do with me

Can you not see the little girl
Deep inside the young woman,
Crying out for her daddy

Craving for your acceptance,
Waiting for the day
To hear you say,
I love you,
And mean it.

You ran away,
Far, far away

You made me think,
You didn't love me

You were gone,
My whole life,
And now you're back

Yet you want nothing,
To do with me

Can you not see the little girl
Deep inside the young woman,
Crying out for her daddy
Katrina Zechman Dec 2016
Open your eyes young soul,
to envision your past lives
to learn from your mistakes,
which over time, one has come to hate

To embrace the light you once have shown,
only to find my faith has grown.
to strengthen your mind only to prove,
that you are the one
whom is truly blind.

Lift your head to speak to the world,
buried behind your cowardess
you feel but only a little girl.
DADDY

Wake up from this awful dream;
you and I , we're on the
same team.

Turn to face the facts, the sky's the limit
and daughter's in love,
this is but one, your horizon lacks.
Look into my face

for my happiness you should embrace.
For you to turn away,
I wait to hear from you
day after day.
DADDY

Don't shut out your only little girl,
for she is a Diamond, No, more
precious than a Pearl.

Don't turn away in her time of need,
What will that show?
Nothing but greed.

Blocking the truth from reaching your heart,
this was bound to happen,
you knew before you ever hit start.
DADDY

*I wish you to be happy
and I know you wish me too,
but with out love one truly can't be.

I grant
yourself has always shunned.
Now, I believe it true,
whether or not you do.

I say this last
in hopes it may pass.
No given to me
from one of God's many soldiers

This may hurt you so, but in this truth
you broke your daughters heart
there is always room to fix.
Katrina Zechman Jan 2017
I drowned my soul in Coke and ***
Just ‘cause I cant stand what the hell I’ve Done.
Ya see mother ******* like me are just plain Crazy,
Kinda like a German **** or Japanese Kamikaze.
***** dudes don’t understand what kinda **** im On,
But by the time they find out I havem’ hung in a tree at the crack of Dawn.
Then the next night I pullem’ down,
Choppem’ up from there neck to the ground,
Then I feast on there body like a Cannibal,
And I release the power of Mr. Hannibal.
It feels so good to let this Out,
Never forget to live life to the fullest and never leave any Dought.
‘Cause once a ******* calls you Out,
Grab them by the neck and snap it in two,
Before you turn around and he does it to you..
And I’m not lien…
I’ll burry you 6feet deep and alive
But slowly Dien, with your whole family Cryin’..
I’m gonna slow it down right here,
‘Cause I know ya ears can barely stand to hear,
What I’m Sayin.
But by the time I hit the end of this verse,
You’ll think my **** name is Satan!
And don’t test me boy ‘Cause you already know I’m not Playin'
Katrina Zechman Aug 2015
The wind blows me around
I’m trapped in the darkness, ****** in to the whole
Deeper and deep I fall
Nobody there to catch me
I see it
The way out
Time freezes but it don’t wait
I cry out, the pain keeps me alive
I lost everything
My fight means nothing
I’m tired but I climb
I’m reaching for the light
I know I won’t find it
The darkness consumes me
Further down I go in to the darkness
I scream, I don’t want to fall
My fight was the only thing I had
I have nothing
Darkness all around me never to be seen
All you hear is the voice of who I used to be
I cry hugging my pillow
Time to let go
All I let go I see the light but it doesn’t matter
Ill fall to see the darkness
As it swallows me whole
It’s my monster
My scars, they trap me
My memory screams out loud
Nobody know I’m consumed with darkness
It traps me within its grasps to never let me go
Katrina Zechman Apr 2016
Fires ablaze within my eyes. A smile concealing all my lies, screaming, begging, calling out, a final, frantic, desperate, shout.
Scarlet tears drip from each vein, a vehement covet to end this pain, this silver blade, stays by my side, because all hope inside has died.
As each day ends and darkness draws, the devil toys, with all my flaws, I’m helpless, alone, a worthless mess, a broken child, he must address.
I’m tempted when her calls my name, a way out, an escape, an end to shape, to make it feel a lot less real, a deal with the devil, in blood must I seal.
They’ll say I dead of suicide, but no one know how much they’ve lied, it was a rope, a blade, or pills, that broke my soul, and gave me the chills
I died inside so long before, to live each day, an endless chore, pills could not **** what was already dead, a twisted soul, and empty head.
In darkness I wait, in silence, alone, rose-tinted nostalgia, all around me has grown, I beckon the devil, with the key of self-harm, and I open the for him, with the blood of my arm
Katrina Zechman Apr 2016
A stranger you were once.
Then, with a gentle look you took my hand.
As our lives engaged,
you lit my life and I held both your hands.
Now that decades have passed,
ours souls have indeed become one.
How fortunate we are
that we have found the love so true
that everyone dreams about
Katrina Zechman Dec 2014
Good night, bonne nuit
Oyasamina sai, buenos noches,
Lala salama, wan an,
Spokoinyui noche, gute nacht,
Lila tov
Wherever you rest your
Head tonight
We are all one family
Let’s hold tight
and fill the world with
Dreams of Harmony
tonight.
No matter what words we use to say… goodnight…
Katrina Zechman Jul 2023
I fell in love with a man,
We thought our son was our saving grace,
We thought living in a homeless shelter,
Was only a temporary stay.
At first it was hard, but we had each other
And our love was our rock and support
We had all of our conversation,
Yet nothing we said could move us ahead,
Every night he said he'd find a better place
Our son was surrounded by sadness,
His future wasn't looking that great,
We could feel the despair in the air,
And we just could no longer wait.
Though we're still in the shelter,
There's a glimmer of light that's seen,
We can still take a positive road,
And happiness can still be achieved.
Katrina Zechman Dec 2016
Skin leathered by the sun
penetrated with motor oil
covers his short stocky body
like canvas over boulders.
He sweats gasoline and morning dew.
My father peals his mind for me...
Discarding seeds,
bearing the fruits of his wisdom
in calloused hands;
a reminder of freedom sacrificed
for my freedom,
my future.
My father is a hard man...
With gentle eyes,
thick framed glasses never hide immortality
dancing in them on my reflection.
In them I am perfect
and if not,
they are forgiving.
Katrina Zechman Jul 2015
She fluent when she speaks
Fluent when she rights
She is even fluent in here heart or who she loves
"She can’t be fluent always" they say
Are they right? Are they wrong?
Only two can know
She is fluent and reading and rhythm
Fluent in poems
But she isn’t fluent to her self
She disappoints her self
Hates her self
And even cut sometimes
But she is fluent in getting stronger and braver
Because she is the one who fluently wrote this poem
She is fluently me
Katrina Zechman Aug 2015
I feel so loved and amazed sometimes,
When I think of you each night and day,
And when I see you, I see stars,
I love you more than words can say...
You're so amazing! This love is floating on clouds!
I can't resist your smile, it's true!
The fall leaves and sun sets fade into shadows...
I am absolutely crazy for you!
Your soul is vibrant; your heart is bright,
And my heart is truly in your hands.
I could run and sing 'til life was done,
But YOU are the focus of my plans.
This magical happiness is amazing my love,
And for you, babe , I thank Heaven above.
Katrina Zechman Nov 2014
With such a scare she ran in to the
fight with  such a light
that With this might she will always be Im in to deep
The guarded one walks into the light
For her part in the apothecary fight
No one can stop this might
the guarded one
No one is stronger
No one is a better fight than her
Her angle seeks the death of her
but cant Come know closer
than a foot away  
his love for her will take over  
he will brake
so he  stays in the dark
lingering till she needs his help
once is all she has to call his name
he will come
pleaase dont take as your own
Her
Katrina Zechman Jan 2016
Her
She loves the beautiful butterflies; she has the long gorgeous hair
She talks Spanish and loves with her heart
her lips are like soft pink pillows
She isn’t skinny but she isn’t large either
She an perfect picture
Beautiful loving heart
eyes that make you melt
She is my princess, my queen, so fair
yet so beautiful
Katrina Zechman Jul 2023
I'm standing here, in the middle of a crowded room
A mass of people living in a state of gloom
My shoulders are slumped, my eyes full of fear
I clutch my child close, desperate to keep him near
At night, his little body shakes with fright
We listen to the cries, drenched in night time light
The air is thick, with scents we despise
But this is our only home, and we just must endure this life
We pray for a better day, when we'll be free
We search for some hope, that will come swiftly
But for now, we must stay here and wait
Until we find a way, to remove this fate
For a home of our own, we'll keep our mind hopeful
We will find a place, where we can be pleasant
A place of warmth and joy with our child
Where joy and peace will forever abide
not quite this bad, but at 1st this is how i felt
Katrina Zechman Nov 2014
Im haunted a little this evening by feelings that have no vocabulary and events that should be explained in dimensions of lint rather than words.
Ive been examining half-scraps of my childhood. They are pieces of distant life that have no form or meaning. They are things that just happened like lint.
Katrina Zechman Aug 2015
I hide in the shadows scared and alone
Screaming for someone to let me out
I hear it the rain and thunder "BOOM" ....
"BANG"....
I hide, I wait, the secrets they scar me,
The people they fear me, I am, who I'm not
I hide, my true colors
the gold to never be see
the blue to be hidden
the red to drip
the purple for a past I don't know
black for the darkness I hide in
Green for where I lay
Orenge for the flame burning under me
Yellow, oh yellow the color I least I like,its bright and solid but song and will full
I hide.
I hide my talents for no more scars
I hide my fear so it don't come true
I hide my sorrow for no sympathy
I hide,I hide,I hide
Katrina Zechman Oct 2018
My thought feed on my imagination, my imagination runs wild with thoughts fight eachother fulling the flames
Thoughts of red dripping from my wrist and me not being good enough...imagination fueling them with images of truths and lies that cut deep red thoughts.
Katrina Zechman Feb 2016
IM THE MAD ONE WELCOME TO WONDERLAD WHERE EVERYTHING IS BACKWORDS
AND EVERYONE IS MAD
I’m the mad hatter waiting for Alice to arrive
I’m the joker wondering "why so serious"
I’m Jeff the killer checks bleeding saying "go to sleep"
I’m the slender man with no eyes but always watching
I’m the face under Michael Myers Mask
I’m Alice looking through the Looking Glass
I’m the red Queen saying “OFF WITH THEIR HEAD”
I’m the boney white rabbit saying “I’m Late I’m Late”
I’m Jack Skellington saying “just because I cannot see it doesn’t mean I can’t BELIEVE in it”
I’m Cheshire the cat saying “EVERY ADVENTURE REQUIERS A FIRST STEP”
IM THE MAD ONE WELCOME TO WONDERLAD WHERE EVERYTHING IS BACKWORDS
AND EVERYONE IS MAD
Katrina Zechman Jul 2015
I decay like moist poison
coursing through one's veins,
indifference
releasing its contents
to a greater system.
Set your summer language
beneath your fingertips
and let it lick pages,
fiddling its own way.
Do not let your words die.
Sweat and scream
ugly whispers into the fog.
Let your tongue fight the
bitter taste of death
and indifference
ink
Katrina Zechman Jan 2016
ink
The ink it goes in to the body
It poisons the blood coursing through your veins
It’s like a black tar; it’s something that never leaves the blood
Everywhere the ink lays the black tar demon seeps threw
Tattoos they are beautiful and stunning
But it hurt like a cut from a piece of glass
The can shine like a diamond and make you stand out but
Never will you be the same because the black tar devil has his claim
Katrina Zechman Dec 2014
It seeps through like a stream in the woods
It creeps up to me like a snake readying for its prey
It’s dark but yet intriguing by its power
Its black but gold
It consumes me from the world, taking my thoughts
Taking my mind, play tricks with my eyes
It controls me, darkness
Insanity it is insane
It drips like blood from a cut
It is still like tall grass that the wind doesn’t blow
It is insane
It is dark yet holy, it is a no but then a yes, it is the stars but yet it is space, never focus never telling the difference
Is this Reality or just a Dream or a thought that is too vivid or is this insanity
Katrina Zechman Jan 2018
I have seen two morning stars
Shining bright upon his face.
Two brown eyes that makes my heart race
Which covers me like an embrace.
I cannot help but feel a glow
Every time he smiles at me.
My joyful heart now wants to know
Whether it should flee or stay.
Tell me not that I must wait
For I no longer can remain,
Waiting for my heart's debate
As it hides itself again.
Perhaps my heart is waiting
Not wanting to concede,
That morning stars do not exist
And it does not want to mislead.
Katrina Zechman Feb 2016
She says she should take the blade
Cut off the life that crawls like a drug under her skin
She wants to end the pain
Make the nightmares disappear
She wants rest
She wants to end it
There’s already scars what’s a few more
The blade rest against the skin
The red message is starting to be carved
P-E-A-C-E
L-I-E-R
Then another
U-N-W-O-R-T-H-Y
She takes a deep breath
It’s done she lays down and cries
Good night
Katrina Zechman Feb 2018
its easy when you were a little twikle toes ballerina or a race car driveing that card bord box as fast as you can. its easy when your a  little vet or doctor. its easy when your watching other poeple live life. its hard when you cant talk to your family about your life. so you run
its easy to run. its hard to stay
Katrina Zechman Apr 2017
I'm sitting here mystified, numbed with pain
To lose someone so close, yet so far away.
Some say you can't lose something you never had.
If that is true, then how can I feel this sad?
I felt more close to you
More than i have to anyone else around me
Because I felt you so deep within me.
So small, and innocent no eyes to see
Yet so full of golden life was felt already.
Disbelief and uncertainty consume my brain
As the tears fall like rain.
my Heart pounding hard, feeling like thunder.
The sorrows and guild down under just can't be explained
"Does he know how much I love him?"
"Dose he know how sorry i am to never hold him?"
I already miss him, I'd do anything to kiss him,
To hold him and embrace the presence of him
to one day touch his skin in the solft clouds above
I can only hope for one of these days
ill be with him again and hold my angle
only some will understand what this is about this happend to me a couple of years ago
Katrina Zechman Apr 2016
Im haunted a little this evening by feelings that have no vocabulary and events that should be explained in dimensions of lint rather than words.
Ive been examining half-scraps of my childhood. They are pieces of distant life that have no form or meaning. They are things that just happened like lint.
I will be very careful the next time I fall in love, she told herself. Also, she had made a promise to herself that she intended on keeping. She was never going to go out with another writer: no matter how charming, sensitive, inventive or fun they could be. They weren't worth it in the long run. They were emotionally too expensive and the upkeep was complicated. They were like having a vacuum cleaner around the house that broke all the time and she wanted her nexst lover to be a broom.
Katrina Zechman Jan 2018
who knew i'd fall in love again
i never thought i'd see this day
i guess my heart has learned to forgive
and the thoughts of 'him' are fading away
you don't know how you make me feel
every word you say brings a smile to my heart
your my everything and i love you so much
i hope that we never fall apart
I wish i could be there with you
i wanna make you happy
i'll do whatever it takes
to make us better than any love story
god you drive me crazy
waiting for you to get online
but it doesnt matter
cuz im so lucky that your mine
i dont care how far away you are
that doesnt stop me from wanting to kiss you
i wanna hear you laugh again
our love is a spell that no one can undo
your amazing and i feel you should know it
your forever in my dreams
i love you so much but have no idea how to show it
getting you out of mind is harder than it seems
do you even feel the same way?
no ones ever really loved me
i hope you dont think im strange
but god you make me so happy
you make my life so much better
and becuz of you i dont wanna die every day of my life
god i hope you love me too
everytime i think of you i start to smile
i just hate going through so much pain and we both are so
please dont hurt me
i dont think i could go through it agian
without you i felt so unhappy
i just want you to know
that i love you with all of my heart
and i want you to trust me like i trust you
and maybe someday our love will be like art they hang in the museums
Katrina Zechman Jul 2023
In this world, where shadows may fall,
I find solace in our bond, strong and tall.
Me and you, together we stride,
Facing life's challenges, side by side.
Through thick and thin, we have grown,
A partnership so deep, it's etched in stone.
Bound by love, trust, and understanding,
Our souls entwined, endlessly expanding.
In your eyes, I find a reflection of me,
A love so pure, it will forever be.
The laughter we've shared, the tears we've shed,
The memories crafted, like golden threads.
In moments of weakness, you lift me high,
With your gentle touch, you ease each sigh.
You mend my wounds, both seen and unseen,
Playing the melody of dreams unforeseen.
Hand in hand, we venture into the unknown,
Building a future, where love has flown.
With every step, our hearts beat as one,
Creating a symphony, under the warmth of the sun.
When darkness comes, and storms may brew,
You and I, strong and steadfast, we'll push through.
For together we stand, unyielding and true,
Me and you, a love that forever grew.
So let the world gaze upon our love's bright hue,
Knowing that in this journey, it's truly me and you.
With hearts entwined, we'll conquer all that we face,
For love's embrace will forever embrace.
Its Just Me and You
To My current and Last Love, I love you so much
Katrina Zechman Jul 2023
It's those mean girls, so awful and mean,
Their mission in life, to bring others unseen.
Tear down the innocent in their typical way,
Wanting others to hurt like they do each day.
They're manipulative and cruel, bullies in disguise,
Pink cliques and gossip being circulated lies.
The teasing and taunting lurks behind every door,
Bullying is widespread, with a lot to investigate and explore.
The continual put downs, shattered esteem,
Leaves the victim trapped in a state in between.
So cruel and judgemental, mean girls with fake smiles,
Disguising true intentions, lives in denial, stuck up aisle.
They don't realize the harm they wage,
Sprinkle their evil with a casual age.
It's those mean girls, so awful and mean,
Their mission in life, to bring others unseen.
Katrina Zechman Dec 2017
Missing you is hell
It's like a darkness of consumption
Missing you is like
a blind person missing all the colors
Missing you is like
a dessert with out water
I miss you like
a fallen angel missing her halo
I miss you babe
Katrina Zechman Nov 2015
i know your out there waiting
on your white hosre
your strong
you stand tall
and your thinking bout finding your Mrs.Right
will Mr.Right she might just be right under your nose
your sweet and kind and you care
you dont show off for other girls
when your with her your only hers
your turst worthy and honaorable
you dont lie
and your thinking bout finding Mrs.Right
well Dear Mr.Right your Mrs.Right might just be right here
i know young puppy love
i wanna be able to play video games and hope to god my family likes you
Dear Mr Right can you care for a firl with scares
can you care for a girl that is clinginy and loves truely and deeply
i might not be wife material but i am i good Mrs.Right and i bet your a better Mr.Right
Katrina Zechman Jul 2023
My one year old son, his laugh so pure and sweet.
It's enough to fill my weary soul with life's purest heat.
His eyes, two bright stars in the night's dark sky,
Glistening with unbound curiosity as he soars ever high.
His skillful little hands, unrivaled in glee,
Stumble through his puzzle only to surprise me.
Time seems to stand still as I take in my proud creation,
And as I sweep him up in my arms he screams my name in jubilation.
In this moment I know there's no greater love than what I feel,
My one year old son is the only one my heart's ever sealed.
my little boy
Katrina Zechman Jul 2015
nello spirito del vento
amo il cuore e non la mente
parlare con l'anima e non le mani
amare se stessi per quello che sei
amo le tue idee anche se non sono vere
Hai cuore di amore, anche se non si tratta di pura
amo la tua verità
solo che ti amo così si può essere liberi
la verità è la verità
sarà l'ultima
il freno di cuore sarà valsa la pena il dolore
il tuo cuore
il tuo amore
il vostro libero arbitrio
sarà su e lo stesso
Tu ami
Hai detto
si cercano avventure lungo e in largo
solo per dire "voglio nascondere"
nello spirito del vento
Correrò e percorrere la distanza solo per vedere la bellezza nei colori
Vorrei cambiare il mio spirito per tutte le gambe per toccare la montagna
Correrò con il cielo e l'amore grande



(it is in italian.....please dont steal this one this is really personal.)
Katrina Zechman Nov 2015
i havent felt this before
the pain, the thought they take over my head
i never knew this before
i know how she feels now
i never knew before
i dont and tired
my head hurts and i have brusies
my scars the was to be fresh
but i dont want to open them
they are healed
time may heal but memories will never be forgotten
Katrina Zechman Jul 2023
Friendship is a bond so dear,
One that fills our hearts with cheer,
Through good times and bad,
We stand together, never sad.
With laughter and joy we share,
And comfort each other when in despair,
A shoulder to cry on, a listening ear,
A friend like you is always near.
In times of need, you're always there,
A true friend, beyond compare,
Forever and always, our bond will last,
For true friendship is never surpassed.
Katrina Zechman Nov 2015
I want him to suffer
I want him to pay for the tortured memories
Time will let me heal but I won’t ever forget
No more being intoxicated
No more MJ
Just done no blood no *****
Just wanting remorse for what has happened
He says I lied
She say some of its true
It’s funny because I remember everything
I want them to be in the pain I was in
She’s in the hospital
He’s out free
No mercy for the tortures memories
Katrina Zechman Aug 2015
There is nothing there
No trust no communication
I don’t believe anymore
It’s all changing
I can’t believe you
You switched up on me
You started it now imp stuck
Why, why is all I can ask?
I can’t trust
I don’t want to talk
But I need to know why
I tried I wasn’t comfortable
I’m **** now  
Between a rock and a hard place
Y trap me like an animal y show me what I missed
Y I was fine without
Now imp stuck and I can’t tell
It’s you as friend or me being uncomfortable
If you didn’t want to wait
You should have never met me
Katrina Zechman Sep 2015
im tired of pain, im tired of sorrow,
everyone says its up to you...they all lied,
its not my option,
its everyone esles but mine
i cry
i want to overdose
i dont, im not giveing up
i fight to get my self out but i dig in deeper
im trapped by an age i cant escape form
trapped but a familly hold
trapped but the option of others
i give them the wheel but,
im takeing my heart and running with the wind
i want to leave
get out
never look back
that is my option when
im no logner trapped by an age
and scorched by the options of others rage
Katrina Zechman Dec 2017
Four years ago you 1st messaged me.
asked me to listen to your music. i did.
i was impressed, with that i had told you i would always be your number on fan.
i was off and on with my ex i didn't see the signs that were pointing me to you
i ignored them. i kept you as a friend, i listed to your music all the time cause it calmed me. hearing your voice. and then one day me and my ex was broken up
we had always flirted with each other but we kinda leaned in to far before we realized what we were doing.
we were but to change the game for the both of us for the rest of out life. we were in love with other people trying to date one another.
i member our 1st date, i didn't know at the time but this was going to make me change my mind about everything i thought i planned.
you were all about your music and working and your ex.
i was all about me and school and my ex.
i broke it off when i was starting to love you and him at the same time
i didn't think it was fair and you had made it easier by yelling at me.
so i broke up with you and couple days later i was back with my ex and we were at an aqword stage in our relationship.
even when i was with my ex i couldn't get you off my mind... he made things easier by cheating and lying to me.
finally i was done with it august 30th
i was officially done with him.
days passed we started talking again
we had been talking off and on in between me dating him and thanksgiving rolled around
i was at my sisters and i told you and you came over.
we hung out and we did the one thing i had been wanting cents our 1st date
we had kissed but that kiss lead to other unexpected things
we had to say our good byes and you made me cry that night by saying you were leaving it broke me
i didn't want you to go
and now your staying,
December 17th you had spent the night with me for the 1st time
i felt everything
and again on December 18th as well
we talked about your music, and how you are losing some of your note books with raps about me in them
us living together...
laughing even while i was sitting on top of you naked
i didn't even remember going to sleep but waking up in your arms the warmth and security of it is bliss.
you will read this when i show you
you wont understand why i wrote it completely
i just know that it scares me
that i cant put my feelings in to words
how love doesn't even describe what i feel when i'm with you and when you leave me
Katrina Zechman Jul 2017
6 years ago we met... I cussed you out on the bus because you were laughing at what your firend was saying about me. When we got off at the same bus stop you started talking to me.. you apologized and asked bout where I was from. I told you. We hung out the next cupple of days after that. March 5 2013 while we were laying in my drive way looking at the stars... you asked me to be your girlfriend for the first time. Things were good for a little while... then things went bad... we had broke up for a little while got back together we had got back together before my 14th birthday i rember this day becuase i had went over to your house after school that day.... and man that was an awesome day... little did I know it was going to change my life for the next 5 months.... June 5th 2013 I was turning 14 me and you had *** no this isn't the first time but it was the longest time the we had did it... little did I know... you had did what we talked about for our future now....you had cam in me... the next day June 6th you broke up with me 3 weeks later I found out I was pregnant. I was so ******. I was so upset. I had only one person to turn to.... Nd that was my bestie. She was there for me. Me and her had hung out every day... I got back with you somewhere in between the pregnancy...but I didn't tell you... I was going to the beach with my bestie one day 5 months later after my birthday and we pulled over at a McDonalds so me and her could ***.... well that day was the worst... I ended up having a miscarige and then my best friend my me tell you only becuase she thought you had the right to know. When I didn't want you to know..... and we're still off and on to this day. And it is now July 26 2017 and I'm 18 years old we were just together 6 weeks ago. And I still am in love with you and I still have no switched up on you.
Not when you lied nd cheated on me countless times.
Not when you left me countless times for your baby mama
Not when you went to jail
Not when you can crieing to me bout your family
Never have I lost my love for you but yet you still can't see that we are actually ment to be cause you always come back to me... you have always needed me... we're best firends... lovers...you will be the man that I want in my life forever if only you can get your **** together. **** why do I love you so much I have no clue .. Nd if anyone that knows me reads this pls don't come up to me and ask me about any of it nd don't judge me for any of this. Okay. Thank you for letting me vent what I needed too.
Katrina Zechman Jan 2016
Pictures perfect
The moment you sense it.
The moment you think it.
Isn’t that the moment you want to capture?
The happiness. The loving eyes. The amazing grin
Capture the picture perfect memories
Katrina Zechman Apr 2016
Poetry
is the catalyst, it inspires
creative solution, and can only speak truth,
it is based in love and compassion for
every living thing that has
inherited the Breath of Life

Sometimes life is merely a matter of coffee and
whatever intimacy a cup of coffee affords.

all of us have a place in history. mine is the clouds and the stars
Katrina Zechman Jul 2015
Allontanato gettò acqua aperta
Vedo bei colori
Rosso, blu, verde, viola
vedere il maestro del mare
Si scivola da me sapendo im ci
Egli mantiene nuoto
È così bello
i colori
la luce
Io vedo il mare per quello che è
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