Birth from a new mother
Excruciating pain like no other
Don't worry
It'll be well worth the fight
Imagine the love shared,
you'll heal

A young child falls on concrete
Scrapes and cuts cover their knees
Don't worry
A bandage and kiss make it alright
Its gonna be ok I swear
you'll heal

Now a thirteen emotional and mean
Father died a honorable marine
Don't worry
One day again you'll feel serene
Talk, confide, it's ok to share
you'll heal

4 years later give all your love to a player
Caught kissing another, what a manipulator
Don't worry
Your future holds someone far greater
Even though it's not fair,
you'll heal

Now 22 with some freinds taking shroooms
Feelings of doom, hallucinations of your tomb
Don't worry
Could be helpful all things you may exhume
As you become more aware,
you'll heal.

Just turned 25, dumb drunk but still drive
Oak tree & car collide, ejected you took a dive
Don't worry
Not your day to die, god ensured you'd survive
Even after the scare
you'll heal

After another decade, all interaction you evade
Fake is all you see, it's a constant masquerade
Don't worry
Friends come and go, so no need to be afraid
Know good and evil dwells everywhere,
you'll heal

Only been a little while, can't help to feel denial
Every single thought you get is sad & suicidal
Don't worry
Calm down and grab a bible
This life we have is rare
you'll heal

Fast forward 12 months, tenth date over lunch
This may be the one, it's more than a hunch
Don't worry
9 years married with kids, not one but a bunch
Family life can be rough, sit, here's a chair
you'll heal

60 years old, reaper has you in a stranglehold
Life flashes, turning cold, your creator behold
Don't worry
In the end life will force us all to fold
Never again will you feel dispair
you have no need to heal anymore

-Ajm

Sworn to silence
a sacred oath
never spoke a word
exactly as told

disease ridden
death bound doctors are certain
waiting behind a red oak door
beholds the grim reaper lurking

6 decades & this vow not yet broken
dragging this imense burden
debates reveling all the unspoken
as if behind a red velvet curtian

decision to tell came much too late.
frantic gasps; hands tight on throat
contemplation actually decided fate
saliva & foam; not a single word said
unintelligible noises is all he had left
both man & secret
officially pronounced dead

-Ajm

Contemplation & Procrastination cause Starvation of Salvation,
Intimidation of Reconciliation cause Deprivation of Sanctification
Hospitalization due to Laceration leaving imperfection, never to see Immaculation
Revitalization of Harmonization based on the Perseveration of Consideration through Consolation.

Devastation & Humiliation cause Trepidation & Depreciation fading Animation,
Disassociation from Civilization & the Population results in Saturation,
Ramifications of a Situation pertaining to Infatuation & Obsession won't bring Rejuvenation,
Desolation & Isolation with out a friend
Desperation & Depression
foreshadow a means to an end

-Ajm

From ashes we arose
humanity brimful with incompetence
Contentment in minds closed
humility dominated by pompousness
egotists swiftly defy any opposed

prioritize this main concern
must benefit future generations
to ensure humanity is preserved
before Earth's cataclysmic retaliation
observes as the populous burns
with impeccable acceleration
to ashes we shall return

-Ajm

We were once all kids
Youngn's, 
Wildly childishly dumb
Some threw fits
Become a nuisance
Some prudent
Possibly a ton
Maybe you wined and kicked
Because your chores weren't done
Probably clueless
Of what the world had yet to come

Then there's the misfits
Who never fit in
Who blew scales of fish
Then threw fists
Took a few to the ribs
So now threw brew to lips
Taking double dipped Blue Cupids
Letting blotter strips melt to tounge

An endevor to numb the constant misuse
Just endlessly pursues
Never able to outrun
The pain forever maintains 
Only abstains for some


We all knew one
A problematic student
During our unsystematic youth
One kick ball captins wouldn't choose adamantly 
Or picked on traumatically 
For reasons enigmatically obtuse
Easy to dogmatically accuse
So now he's pragmatically recluse

He walks out of school
Without any excuse
But doesn't go home
Because there's no escape free from abuse
Done it so many times 
Has a bracelet above his shoes
The only safe place he can seem to think
To avoid feelings profuse and being upset
Is the old Willow tree on a swing 
With a noose around his neck
16 year olds
Shouldn't contemplate death

Anyway he picks up the goose
Can't complain it's better than the latter
Sensation so placid
Lamination built couth
Decides to drop some acid
As he heads up a ladder
To the top of the mall roof

It is now 6 stories up
This is how his story shut
Crying apparently seeing stuff
Lying guaranteeing to the kid 
He'd fly away if he just jumped
Without a single condemn
Not a single to hand to lend
Not one person that he could depend
This day became his end
Nobody heard his voice again
Guilty unable to make amends
As he fell to his doom, his death
To a better place he'd soon ascend
A misfortunate event
But God will assure he is now content
I guess you could say its unfortunate
At the least it's for the best
In piece may his soul rest
And forevermore be blessed



R.I.P my freind
©thrags

I am Legion
We are Six
not one demon
River Styx
Give in
Live in sin
And you shall then
become free men
Trust in we
Just believe
I will fix
Bring forth relief
For all your grief
To all that which
God cannot even resist

MATURECONTENT


Just a goof I swear*






Call this the Catalina.
Your girl p#### wetter than aquafina
Whispers in my ear how she nastier than Trina
Grabbed me by the d### and swore she'd make me a believer
Then we left the crowd as we headed toward her beamer
Thinking to myself, this girl might be a keeper
Opened up the door,
I see her knees getting weaker
Turned around and told me, how she is a screamer
Cool with me, just gonna cut up the speakers
Both climb aboard, says she wanna play receiver,
I will do the chores, I can be your cleaner
Just call me Stanley Steamer,
now girl drop it down and show me that ******
We f##### so hard I believe I broke a femur
All I heard was SNAP,
Onamotapiea,
Turned so red thought she caught scarlet fever
Looks me in the eyes, and begs I never ever leave her
Read between the lines, I seen her as a deceiver
Then she ****** me dry, nicknamed is over-achiever
Hopped out the whip, said I dont like your demeanor
Frustration made me trip so I threw up a finger
Yelled before I dip, good luck with the gonorrhea
Haven't seen her since and I hope I don't either.

-Ajm

Darkness swallows him, becoming a lunatic
Empathy fading, left him feeling apathetic
Say what goes round comes round hes a skeptic
Psycosis makes him hear voices, a schizophrenic
Alcohol abuse, claims that it's genetic
Indecisve, no wonder he's always hysteric
Realizes he's doomed, will he ever feel esoteric?

Constantly predetermined to be one who'll lose
Outgoing you say? its a facade, its a ruse
Noose on hand, he just needs an excuse
Satanic he is labeled, because of his tattoos
Understand he can't take all of the abuse
Mostly docile, but close to shorting a fuse
Everytime issues arise, he's the one accused
Souls crumble under feelings so profuse

Listens and there for all, but no-one to confide
Over and over, thoughts of suicide
Step in his shoes, bet you'll be petrified
Tell me that now you can see he's dissatisfied

Still can't escape all the hate & antagonisim
Ostracized from a society thriving on narcissism
Unable to believe the world's constant cynicism
Living reclusive, it's his defense mechanism
Save the pity he came to terms with the cataclysm

-Ajm

Oh sleep
where have you gone: I wish you still cared
do you remember intamate times we shared
why dont we have a love affair
We were such a lucid pair

Oh sleep
I'm so messed up: I miss the way you feel
just us remeber: down forever: we had a deal
this is a dream right: no way this is real
broken that you left: my heart will never heal

Oh come back sleep
i need you ever so deep
without your embrace I'm weak
please come home or for eternity I weep

First things first,
When problems can't seem to get worse,,
An unmistakable feeling of despair & lack of courage,
Comes forth,
Before unbearable growing thoughts burst,

Here is a bit of friendly advice,
I know a marvelous church,
Where they praise and rejoice,
With the utmost love,
All in the name of Christ,

Let me tell you about their devout leadership
What could it hurt?
Pastors preach with guidance of the Holy Spirit,
Along with practicing,
Each and every aspect of the word,

You couldn't begin to fathom or explain,
How they constantly remain selfless,
Willing to help no matter day, night, sun or rain,
Without the slightest pinch of selfishness,

Don't think for a minute,
That they could ever be replaced,
It would be the same as a car without an engine,
What good is the body, if it has no face,

Hope this brings some people to a realization,
About the things I'm hesitant to mention,
Such as my life being plauged by the devil's terrorization,
Until they helped save my soul with nothing but Devine Intervention,

To all facing complication and tribulations
Be it from fear of revelation,
Maybe a wealth situation,
Something as serious as health degeneration,
Students struggling with education frustration,
Feelings of isolation due to lack of affirmation,
Or difficulty coping a separation of relation,

Seek solace and consolation,
Because the truth is that it's all God's intention,
Including our pastors helping guide us to our final destination,
Finally bringing unification,

Let us show our appreciation,
By displaying gratification for those who lead our congregation,
For unimaginable amounts of their dedication
Best of all is their aspiriation,
To do all they can to help us find peace in salvation,

With that being said I want to thank them,
They are loved in the fullest,
They deserve nothing less,
Than a standing ovation,

-Ajm

Thoughts of simple days bring torment
.Remember being a kid and enjoyment
 .Appalling how its now all irrelevant  
  .Peel back the truth and circumvent
   .Pleased to be here, but discontent
    .Endure a life stripped of consent
     .Delusions of grandeur disorient

      .Its easy to be deviant
      .Not so much benevolent

    .Mediate to avoid feeling desolate
   .Yesterdays gone, thats a definite

  .More days pass, feel more desperate
 .Implored how you became insolent
.Never again to feel beguilement
Dwelling in past, brings only lament

-Ajm

incessant dilemmas;
infinite
abstinent solutions;
Nonexistent

inserted into an age
of malevolent agenda
overflowing center stage
a non-sentient vendetta

in consensus that,
ignorance is venomous,
belligerent indefinite;
self-distruction now immanent
ominous the problematic incident;
consequence from beings omniscient
for insolence of the unintelligent
across anonymous continents

triangulate,
mimic the intricate
not so distant
instant of inseminate
fruition came to the human condition
maturation a simulation
innovation in creation

Though what comes after,
disaster,
devastation,
loss,
temptation,
last stop,
"Necropolis Station"

I~nsecurity lurking within

W~orriedly closing the curtains
I~nternally hurting from burdens
L~ost surely loathing your kin
L~ets absurdity doting deepen

E~ternally flirting with sin
V~ulnerability sporting chagrin
O~bscurity working to pin
L~eft certainty cursing the wind
V~irtually yearning to win
E~xternally learning it worsens

-Ajm

Pratice what you preach
Loving all those you meet
Enlightenment is what we seek
Accomplishing such a feat
Solidifies bonds strong as concrete
Everyday has trials never admit defeat

How do some uphold positivity
Everywhere seeing endless possibility
Live life without a pinch of animosity
Pacing through the day catatonically

Maybe I'm the one who's wrong
Edging more towards where I belong

Feelings of uselessness
Intruding my consciousness
Never receive any compliments
Delivered only empty promises

Mental status: ready to immolate
Yes I'm mad at the world, even irate
Selfish people should face expropriate
Eventually will come time to arbitrate
Leaders now distort and obfuscate
Free yet forced to be subordinate

-Ajm

One unfathomable inhale
she begins to dance with constalations
beneath a crescent moon
frolics and flirts
at a quarter til two

music flows throught the valley
ever suave and susurrous
encumbered with exuberance
hypnoticly sways
synced to the mystical tune

locked between a velvet nose
eyes remaining entombed
under curtains enclosed
for a moment unbarred
unlocks an entire cosmos

feeling exquisite the dark
with newly found felicity
liberated and free
graceful as a swan
now approaching a half past 3

heaven would reveal
an angelic type appeal
mentally I scream
still physically conceal

waving around as ocean tide
observing I've become entranced
under a spell utterly memorized
desperately pleading for time to stop
with a tick it then strikes 5 o'clock

never more engulfed in awe
a marvelously breathtaking sight
she's preposterously luminous
more than the brightest starlight
twas the furthest thing from a fly by night

-Ajm

Pratice what you preach
Loving all those you meet
Enlightenment is what we seek
Accomplishing such a feat
Solidifies bonds strong as concrete
Everyday has trials never admit defeat

How do some uphold positivity
Everywhere seeing endless possibility
Live life without a pinch of animosity
Pacing through the day catatonically

  Maybe I'm the one who's wrong
  Edging more towards where I belong

   Feelings of uselessness
   Intruding my consciousness
   Never receive any compliments
   Delivered only empty promises

    Mental status: ready to immolate
    Yes I'm mad at the world, even irate
    Selfish people should face expropriate
    Eventually will come time to arbitrate
    Leaders now distort and obfuscate
    Free yet forced to be subordinate

-Ajm

How were you so ruthless
Now your touch hurts
Left me clueless
But the truth is
That it could've hurt worse
Let me show you I can prove it

I was naive
So stupid
To believe
We both felt Cupid
Shoot an arrow love conceived
When in reality you felt too convoluted

So ***** it
I'm done
This is ruined
Have fun?
Cause I'm about to have a blast
Well hell
if I down this liquor fast
I'd be quicker
To pull the trigger
On this gun
At last

Guess I'll start
Picking up
Every part
Of my broken heart
Scattered, ripped, and tattered
Now I'm scarred
Shattered, kicked, and battered
I fell apart
Around this whole entire town
You had pound it in the ground
Also my time you stole
Never found
Tossed it right into a hole
Buried with it with lime
Guilty of GTA and hit and run
Let's add a count of homicide
Don't worry I'll be taking that one

Let's go for a ride
No longer Bonnie and Clyde
Not the front you're in the trunk
And you better abide
Just happily oblige
What the f### you say punk?
Don't worry where we're headed
Should've believed me when I said it
You created this
These roots you have imbedded
So I give you all the credit
Now your life's mine alone to bet with
Let's see how your heart takes it
After I shred it

If I gave you the full moon
wrapped tightly with a bow
would it make you stay,
or would you still want to go?

If I gave you a kiss
and proclaimed my love
would it make you stay,
or fly away like a dove?

if I gave you a house
a beautiful chateau
would it make you stay,
or change the status quo?

If I gave you ring
and made you my wife
would it make you stay,
or just walk out of my life?

If I gave you a child
could this be reconciled
would it make you stay,
or at least feel beguiled?

If I gave you my all
and it was 100 percent
would it make you stay,
or still be discontent?

If I commit suicide
what if I killed myself
would wish you did stay,
or be quick to find someone else?

If you have a shift in paradigm
as you stand beside my tomb
would it make you stay,
one last time,
benign,
beneath your full moon?

-Ajm

Demons stalk & provoke
can't escape, no Anastasia
a wolf under sheep's cloak
left begging for euthanasia

Banished & quick to jilt
denied any approval
as the leafs are bound to wilt
it was nothing unusual

Empathy mistaken as weakness
resulted in emotions aloof
appalling was a sight so grievous
the cadaver suspended by noose

-Ajm

To be completely honest
I'm done being deeply modest
Sick of your mouth
Couldn't be your orthodontist
Broke all you that you had promised
Still you choose to be dishonest

So now begins the end
Decison far from no contest
Victory shall be flawless
Your amends has no predominance
The truth is your abuse has
Hung my emotions from some nooses

All you do is construe
Useless untrue excuses
Yes I can be crazy too
A wire loose
Maybe a few
But If you were in my shoes
**** right you'd blow a fuse
But I'd never make you choose
Like you made me on the daily

That was low
That was shady
When you spoke about a baby
Do you think that I appreciate the lies
Tell me
Do you think so Amy

Not caring for my feelings
Though this time is not the first
If wrote down only the worst
It'd be reaching to the ceiling
Breaching up until it burst

This has got my mental state
No longer gentle just irate
I can see right through you
It's bizarre how all I see is fake

Now you want my approval
For Christ sake give me a break
Dementedly lost my respect
Couldn't keep yourself in check
Eventually it was bound to happen
What the heck did you expect

That I would turn a blind eye
That I would let it slide by
Only way that could be the case
Would be to stab me in the face
With ice skates then wait
In probate until I die

And even then you couldnt make me cry
I've got to many fish to fry
Just a crab consumed in cake
Won't settle no more for cheap imitate
Until the moon and Earth collide
I won't be satisfied
You and I are not an option
No more will I oblige

It's no longer on the table
Closet now empty, clear and, clean
Unable to sense fear it appears
Or I don't care it would seem

Leave me out of your fable
And keep me out of your dreams
Might want to search for something stable
Because I'm tearing us apart
Let me start
With the seams

-Ajm

Here is a little short story
Of a mans accusatory
tendency toward one other
In a manner rather pother

We will call the first one "Jay"
And call second one "Aye"
Jay was starting to become certain
Aye hid secrets behind closed curtians

Jay says Aye had slept with his girl
Aye told Jay please don't make me earl
This was not truth Jay was confused
Just a fantasy drugs had induced

For a few long months they were head to head
Aye wakes to a text in the middle of the night
Saying I wish you were dead
Reads and gets mad, now he is ready to fight

Aye was upset and jumped in his car
Started towards Jay's house but he didn't get far
Fell asleep at the wheel and he overcorrected
Hits a tree, flipped nine times before being ejected

No seatbelt had been worn
it was the perfect storm
Going eighty in a forty
Should have turned him in to mincemeat

Ruptured discs
broken ribs
Collapsed lungs
But still lived

Jay had felt no remorse
Still suspicious of course
Aye knew the crash was his own fault
He should've put anger to a halt

Now Aye tries only to be kind
And keep Jay's problem his in mind
Hoping one day it'll be again informal
But it has continued to be abnormal

That was a year ago and sad to say
This story is true by the way
Jay still makes false claims about Aye til this day
Here's the worst part I'm Aye, my Uncle is Jay

-Ajm

Today was the day I died
Left for dead, at dead of night
Truck stop ride, then dropped roadside
Four lanes wide, now walking as I cry
Asked god why, just give me wings I'll fly
Bashful, and I'm shy, no one would pick up a guy.
Still was gonna try, so I  held my thumb up high
Cars flew right by, as they laughed waving goodbye
Long winded sigh, before deciding to retry
One second bone dry, next a monsoon from the sky
Wonder what did it signify, as the rain intensified
Couldn't believe my eyes, when a car stopped with a slide
A Rabi and a man sporting a spotted neck tie
Said that I could hop inside, then shifted into drive.
Little did I know how quickly things would go awry
They didn't care to specify, they didn't clarify
Behind me peoccupied, was a man wielding a knife.
Grabbed me by the neck and told me to comply
Completely horrified when I saw the bloodlust in their eyes.
It was three against I, in no position to defy
Bound my hands with zip ties as they talked of alibis
Made a turn nearby, road I couldnt identify
They then pry me out the car said it was time to purify
Told me to abide in exchange I'd keep my life
In an attempt to pacify, all my urges nullified
Entered a modified house, it was heavily fortified
Completely terrified when my suspicions were verified
Number of people had multiplied, all so satisfied
All here to glorify, the ritual sacrifice
Hoping they would be deified, not knowing they would be denied.
My plan was then solidified, "I'll run before crucified
Get far away then hide, notify the FBI and then I'll testify"
Then i let out battle cry, turned to run, stabbed in the thigh
Fell to the ground petrified,  25 times siliced till no longer alive
I wondered why while my soul arises and watched my body ossify
This indeed is how I died, by means of homicide

-Ajm

So many problems
fewer solutions
apathetic are those
promoting negativity
empathetic are those
who love when dispised

in efforts combined
found a love unified
only then lay witness
to hate & evil's demise
never to compromise
conquered with simplicity
strengthening life's continuity

How come people only want to miss you, after you're gone?
As if life isn't precious... How can some be so malicious?
We live in an era of self pity followed by a sense haunting remorse.
Like caring for one another is nothing more than a few daunting chores...
To caught up in ourself, forgetting about everyone else...
Quick to put those we "love" straight to the back of the shelf,
Why is it we never step to the plate,
Maybe we need to analyze how we feel before it's far too late..
Instead they're putting on a mask like its just another face..
Not knowing one another, is this an abyss or a typical masquerade?
Feeling lost in a nightmare, am I alive, am I awake?
Why are all these people pretending we aren't the ones all along, who have been acting fake.

A search for happiness
Will be a futile attempt
This applies to all
Nobody exempt

The key is how you think
You must have an open mind
Other aspects you must see
Good luck, farewell
I hope you find it
Before you run out of time

I don't have that much love left to give
I don't have that much time left to live
Its become so daunting & arduous
In a constant war with Lucifer,
Yet before he departs he brings a parting gift

Turned to substances in search of Bliss
Even so the pain still persists
Life is a fog that I cannot simply dismiss
No relief to be found,
Lost for eternity wandering forever in the mist

Desperate for a sense of peace & solace
Spiting God wishing I had never even exist
Instantaneously filled with regret but unable to resist
In the mirror stands my executioner,
Maniacally laughing as I tremble in his midst

Felt an itch right beneath my fist
Scratched & clawed until I slit my wrist
Now I'm sure you got the gist
Blood covers the entire ground,
Not a single spot missed

Thoughts of where things went amiss
Begin to cry and remenice
As I plunge deeper into the abyss
Loss of any type consciousness
Now I truly understand pure Bliss

Salutations,
With a kiss


-Ajm

Darkness consuming solar luminescence
a new scene revealed as day expired
clubs shine signs of neon fluorescence
men in search for prey, target acquired

An ominous chill befell this night
every neck hair stood at attention
overcast sky now blocking lunar light
changed the mood with aggression

Screams can be heard with clarity
approaching with malicious intent
ran but unable to match in dexterity
evil eyes brimful of sick enjoyment

Scarred by that night forevermore
in attempt to avoid feeling haunted
vowed to set out & even the score
Ironic, the hunter became the hunted

The stars aligned for the perpetrated
what happened then was well deserved
even after death couldn't escape the hatred
when karma catches up don't be perturbed

-Ajm

Leaf after leaf,

swept away by cool breeze

Bare naked trees,

leaves the scene incomplete



Say it's that time of the year

The season is Autumn

So it seems it would appear

I must have forgotten



Can't express how its ever annoying

How now time so swiftly & quickly flies

Like a 747 Boeing

And will until my untimely demise



Please just stop, don't make me outraged

Stop with all of the clamor & buzz

Before I go full on rampage

Even worse than how Bruce Banner does





Could this just be my vanity?

Or something far more extreme

Maybe I've lost my sanity

And can't find my self-esteem



Who me? You think I'm crazy? Far from the average?

Why in the world would you ever think that?

Just because I would drive straight off of that there bridge,

With my girl ******* in the back of this **** pontiac



Well now that I have said that out loud so chipper,

I'm starting to think I am a 'per se' maniac

A ***** or two loose, yet still proud like the ripper

Here take my card, you can call me by my name, it's Jack