hollow o my soul,
lost them down the hole.

chanting with them wall,
i wish time could stall.

hallucination at its best,
yet my mind did not rest.

recreating some scenes,
hysterical but dreadfully keen.

a girl
she's shy and unseen
often walks tired
but looks at you
weary blue eyes
like ***
laughing timidly
for mystical reasons
always beautiful
and easy going
but  hard to love

I'm standing still
Facing the infinite darkness of the sky
Stars raining over me
I breath them
Piercing my lungs

I'm standing still
The snow has coated me
so soft, so cold
I want to run but my feet are numb
The air becomes heavier and heavier
The stars are fading
And so am I.

The moment you set your eyes on me,
I knew something is bound to start,
No matter how much we deny it,
We know we both captured our hearts.

By the gentle touch of our hands,
We can feel the surge of emotions,
Every word that comes out our mouths,
We felt a strong liaison.

What is it that we see on each other?
That we get smitten too soon,
We barely even know each other,
Yet it feels like we've known each other for too long.

They speak with such hostility towards my goals
But they're just simply non believers
I stand on top of my sentences with promise and I don't play games
Despite me having a hard time speaking
I come off as slow but I'm simply moving too fast
For someone who is in complete denial of what I have to say
I take pity on those I have hurt
Because I wish I was able to be the only one who was hurt
Too many scratches inside my soul
The Angels couldn't recruit me to protect their threshold until I healed my wounds
But the heart resides and looks for shelter
Two actions at once
I'm a man trying to revert the dagger that I didn't see coming
This blockade of sadness is forthcoming
I must subsidize my qualms and dry my palms
I have too much soot on my hands
I must clean myself before I can be transparent again

Tommorow was the day
Yes I'd be married
My love, my life.
My dear wonderful wife.
Jessica, I have prepared my vows.
"Have you?" She asked with wide glistening eyes.
I thought I felt paradise.
She handed me her vows
And kissed me and I read
"Dear Jaden,
Remember how you tripped the moment you saw me?
I swear I never felt happy anymore in my life.
Remember the chocolates and your bunking classes?
Remember how you broke my window glasses?
Remember the sunset?
Remember us wild?
Remember how we kissed?
Remember how we cried
Oh my selfish selfish self!
I left my family
My room
My mothers touch
And now you are talking about vows...do they fit right?
I promise to love you as much as I do today night.
Relieve your pain, fix your tuxedo young man  because, I"ll be the one in white.

It does.
Take the cork out your ***,
Man up,
Take it in.
So what if its raining?
There are puddles to splash in.
Frogs to chase.
Turtles to save!
So what if the brat wont shut up?
Later, he wont talk to you at all
Because life *****
So you **** it in.
Blow it out.
Stomp it down.
Beat it up.
And show it who's boss.

Why did you leave me here all alone
Under the bridge that we called home
I'm tired and hungry, covered with dirt
Every bone in my body hurts
We ran away together
Forever was our plan
I know things were tough
Is that why you ran?
You left me here during the night
I don't understand, I'm so full of fright
I stumble toward the street on a mission for food
That's when I saw the silhouette of you
Your body lay lifeless, you were facing down
A puddle of blood covered the ground
Who do I call
I don't have a phone
I collapse to the ground, one never-ending groan
How I wish I could go back in time
Where you and I still did shine
Now what do I do
Without you
I lay on the ground and cry
For all the lost days and days gone by

I keep looking for people to pray to
Someone around whenever i need help
Someone to help me trough the tough days
the tough days, when i cannot carry my own shoulders
and can't even face the weight on them

I keep searching for people that have inner lights
bright enough to sunlight my dark days
with a love so strong i could cling to
and a consience clean enough to be praised

But i haven't found a person yet i could turn into my god
i keep looking in all the wrong places
shouldn't there be someone around strong enough
to help me trough my life?

I keep looking at all the wrong places
people aren't God, and have no sacret power
if i ask them to pull me up, they'll allways let me down
so i should move around my horizon,
and finally ask the only Person strong enough
to change my life forever