Stygian

Stygian Jan 2019

I wonder how you would see me if we never stopped.
I wonder how things would feel if we never ended.
I wonder how I would sound, or if I would've stopped drinking.
I wonder if your smile would be brighter or you'd hold my hand tighter.
I wonder what we would be if we never stopped...

#relationship #alone #single #help #love #sad #miss

Stygian Nov 2018

Opposite Ends.

I just want you to close to me...

...but you're begging to be free.

#alone #single #broken #relationship #lonely #sad #sadness

Stygian Nov 2018

What is it..

I feel dead.
Numb.
Dumb.
Is this what love is?
Do they always run?
I feel misled.
Used.
Abused.
Is this what love is?
Does it always bruise?
I feel alone.
Scared.
Unfair.
Is this what love is?
Do they ever ******* care?
Do they ever ******* care?

Nov 2018

Queenologist

Universe Of Two

I wana close my eyes
& wake up next to you
I wana see your worst
that leads up to the best of you
I wana lay on your chest
& listen to your heart beat
Look up into your eyes
& tell you that it belongs to me
I wana please you
mentally, emotionally & physically
I wana make you smile
be your saving grace
kiss all over your face
& give you the best of me
I wana make you wana run home to me
& make love to me
because you love being alone with me
I want you to trust deep down in your core that I adore you
Do anything for you
I love you with all of me
I Would never do you any harm
You not being part of my world
means everything in life is wrong
I wana be your confidant
your best friend, lover & your wife
I want you to know that
where you belong is forever in my life.

#love #soulmate

Stygian Nov 2018

My Biggest Fear Is..

Getting too comfortable with being alone that I feel nauseous at the sight of love.
Getting so used to the quiet that company bothers me.
Being terrified of sharing my life with someone.
Being okay with not finding my person.
Not letting go of the one that left me stranded.
I feel weak..
I feel angry..
And most of all I feel lost without you.

Stygian Nov 2018

Nothing Lasts Forever

I'd rather be alone
then wait for you decide
When you feel like revealing me or hiding me
In a dark place of your mind
I am not a pretty girl you can flaunt
I am not a *** toy you can use once a month
You seek perfection
And to you that's a standard
You don't believe in depression
And you have all the answers
You want to love someone
But don't want to love their past
You're the one holding the gun
But my blood is already on the glass
How low can I go
To make you feel better
It's all you've ever known
Nothing lasts forever

#poem #broken #relationship #heartbreak #forever #love #sad #alone #depression